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This week we welcome back friend of the pod, holistic therapist Megan Sherer to talk about the least-known trauma response: Fawning.
THE TABOO
Fawning is a trauma response just like fight and flight. Women who fawn are taught to be agreeable, low-maintenance, and accommodating. But what if that âcool girlâ persona is actually your nervous system trying to stay safe?
Fawning can also show up in intimacy: When women say yes to sex they donât want, itâs often not consent. And giving yourself up like that can have serious consequences.
LINKS + RESOURCES
đ Book Recommendations
* Sex Object: A Memoir by Jessica Valenti
* Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker
* Choose Your Self by Megan Sherer đ„
TIME STAMPS
* 01:41 Understanding trauma responses
* 03:19 Introducing Megan Sherer
* 11:22 Fawn response in relationships
* 16:43 Self-abandonment and consent
* 21:55 Internalized misogyny and the âPick Meâ Girl
* 36:57 Internal Family Systems (IFS) therapy
* 41:14 Fawning vs. people pleasing
* 47:38 Building boundaries and self-trust
* 59:32 Grey's Anatomy and the 'Pick Me' Girl
* 01:06:14 Megan's book and final thoughts
THE GUEST EXPERT
Megan Sherer is a holistic therapist and relationship coach, a speaker, and facilitator with 11+ years of experience leading women back to their most authentic self. She is the creator of the Love Alignment method and The Self Care Space, and has helped thousands of women create transformation in their lives and relationships.
Megan is an expert in healing with training and certifications in somatic healing, hypnotherapy, life coaching, energy healing, yoga, meditation, and mindfulness-based therapy.
* đ Meganâs đ book: Choose Your Self
* đ» Meganâs website
* đźđȘ Reclaimed Self Healing Retreat in Ireland
KEY TAKEAWAYS
The fawn response is a trauma response.
Saying yes when you mean no, keeping the peace, or being the âcool girlâ isnât just people-pleasing; itâs your nervous system trying to stay safe, especially after experiences of emotional or sexual trauma.
â People-pleasing is a more general personality trait, with some overlap with codependency and anxious attachment, but fawning happens in moments of perceived threat and boundary violation.
Ignoring your own needs is self abandonment, and it is destructive.
When you ignore your own needs to avoid rejection, conflict, or abandonment, you may feel connected in the momentâbut over time, it leads to resentment, disconnection, and loss of self.
You can learn to trust your body.
Healing from fawning means reconnecting with your bodyâs cues, learning to tolerate discomfort, and practicing consent that includes you. You donât have to perform to be lovedâyou just have to be present.
ACTION ITEMS
Some actionable things to try, based on Meganâs expert advice:
* Notice one moment this week when you want to say âno,â but feel pressure to say âyes.âDonât change anything yet; just notice the impulse. Awareness is the first step!
* Do a body check-in before making a decision.Ask yourself: âWhat does my body feel right now âŠtight, tired, tense, open?âIf something feels off, practice pausing before answering. Even just saying, âLet me get back to youâ can be a big win!
* Say no to something small, and do it without apologizing.Cancel a plan. Skip the email. Turn off your phone. Practice disappointing someone in service of not abandoning yourself (Iâm working on this, too!).
SOURCES
Internal Family Systems Institute
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This week, I am joined by the âLube Fairyâ herself, Cindy Scharkey, RN, BSN, to talk about a much-misunderstood, underrated, and âhard to findâ body part: The clitoris.
What is it? Why doesnât it get enough credit? And what are we missing about our own pleasure?
THE TABOO
In this episode we dive into sexual pleasure â specifically, the widespread ignorance, silence, and shame surrounding the clitoris, arousal, and womenâs right to enjoy sex on their own terms, plus:
* The cultural erasure of the clitoris and female anatomy from sex education
* The myth that sex is (or should be) centered around penetration and male pleasure
* The shame many women feel about needing time, lube, or different types of stimulation
* The silence around pleasure in midlife and menopause
* The discomfort around self-pleasure, communication, and asking for what you want
LINKS + RESOURCES
* The OhNut Depth-Limiting Rings by The Pelvic People
* Ăberlube
đ Book Recommendations
* Better Sex Through Mindfulness by Lori Brotto, PhD
* Come As You Are: The Surprising New Science That Will Transform Your Sex Life by Emily Nagoski, PhD
* The Body Is Not An Apology: The Power of Radical Self Love by Sonya Renee Taylor
* The Wisdom of Your Body: Finding Healing, Wholeness, and Connection through Embodied Living by Hillary L McBride, PhD
TIME STAMPS
* 3:40 â Cindyâs journey from labor and delivery nurse to sex educator
* 9:30 â âWhat is a clitoris?â The cultural joke around âthe clitâ
* 18:00 â Beginnerâs guide to arousal and pleasure
* 19:40 â âThe Arousal Ladderâ â Slow buildup vs. media myths
* 21:10 â âYour brain is your biggest sex organâ â Dual Control Model (accelerator & brake)
* 25:20 â Mental load, chores, and âchore-playâ as arousal
* 32:00 â Desire vs. arousal explained + âIs the sex youâre having worth wanting?â
* 39:15 â âMindfulness starts outside the bedroomâ â citing Dr. Lori Brottoâs research
* 51:20 â Listener Q: How to keep libido up midlife? â Find menopause-literate providers, use lube, arouse all erectile tissue
* 57:45 â Communication: âItâs a learnable skill â donât bring the whole bucketâ
* 59:00 â Mutual masturbation as a teaching tool and self-pleasure as a way to relearn your body after birth or menopause
* 1:03:40 â âWhy are women obsessed with romantasy?â
* 1:12:00 â Whatâs in Cindyâs bag?
THE GUEST EXPERT
Cindy Scharkey, RN, BSN, has been consistently exposed to the taboo and silence surrounding womenâs sexuality over nearly four decades in healthcare as a Certified Childbirth Educator, OB/GYN nurse, and speaker.
She is passionate about providing women with the education and self-confidence they need to find freedom on their own sexual wellness journey.
* Cindyâs website: Sexual Health with Cindy Scharkey
* đ Permission for Pleasure: Tending Your Sexual Garden
* đ§ Permission for Pleasure Podcast
ACTION ITEMS
* đ§ Learn your anatomyLook up a diagram of the vulva and clitoris. Know what parts you actually have, and what they do.
* đ° Give yourself transition timeBefore sex, take a shower, light a candle, change your clothes, dance to a song âŠ. anything to shift gears from caregiving or work mode.
* đą Slow down arousalAim for at least 20 minutes. More time = more blood flow = more sensation = better orgasm.
* đ§ Use lube (no shame!)Friction is not your friend. Lubricant can change everything, especially during perimenopause and menopause.
* đȘ Remember the arousal ladderDonât expect to jump from zero to orgasm. You climb, step by step.
* đ§ Explore your brakes and acceleratorsAsk: What turns me off? What helps me feel turned on? Mental load, stress, or pain might be pressing your brake.
* đ Read or listen to eroticaTry books or audio like Dipsea to build arousal without pressureâjust for you.
* 𧎠Try morning sex or post-exercise sexYour hormones are usually more cooperative, and your blood flow is already going.
* đŹ Talk to your partner (outside the bedroom!)Use a podcast or book as a convo starter. Start with one idea at a time.
* đȘPractice self-pleasureGet to know what your body likes, especially after a baby or in midlife when things might feel different.
* đ§ââïž Use your sensesPractice being sensual (not necessarily sexual) â notice smells, textures, sounds. Pleasure starts with presence.
* đ©ș If sex is painful, get helpPain is not normal. Talk to a menopause-trained provider or pelvic floor therapist.
SOURCES
The components of optimal sexuality: A portrait of "great sex."
Virtual Reality Erotica: Exploring General Presence, Sexual Presence, Sexual Arousal, and Sexual Desire in Women
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This episode is about some **big** topics, but â I swear â Iâve never laughed so much or so hard as during this interview with Sonia Voldseth of Menopause & Misogyny.
Sonia and I are menopausal women with a history of eating disorders, navigating what it means to be a woman with a âbelly shelfâ in a culture in which misogyny dictates that women should stay young and thin forever ⊠or just disappear.
THE TABOO
How menopause impacts body imageâespecially for women with a history of disordered eatingâand naming the shame, fear, and internalized misogyny that fuel it.
â ïž Content warning: Descriptions of disordered eating and body size.
TIME STAMPS
* [00:12:30] The phrase "you just have to have balls to get through [menopause]" (and how it reveals internalized misogyny)
* [00:20:00] Honest conversation about cystic acne, panic attacks, and the emotional toll of perimenopause
* [00:30:00] Body image spirals when trying on jeans post-menopause
* [00:34:00] We unpack how old disordered eating behaviors creep back in during body changes in menopause
* [00:38:00] Reframing eating disorders through a trauma-informed lens: âItâs not whatâs wrong with you, itâs what happened to youâ
* [00:45:00] Pamela Anderson and internalized misogyny: What it means when women stop performing beauty
* [00:48:00] Te Ruahinetanga; the MÄori word for menopause as a sacred transition.
* [00:55:00] Body neutrality vs. body love, and why neutrality is often the more realistic, empowering goal
THE GUEST EXPERT
Sonia Voldseth lives in Aotearoa (New Zealand) where she mothers and writes and works as a registered mental health counselor dealing with sexual trauma, PTSD, anxiety, depression and body image. She has two clever and kind teenaged daughters and is married to a Kiwi.
She was born and raised in Montana on a cattle ranch, then worked in national politics and briefly as a lawyer, before she realized âhow much it sucked.â
She is excited to be fifty-one years old and finally talking about menopause and misogyny.
LINKS + RESOURCES
Stuff we mention in this episode:
* Dr. Mary Claire Haver of âThe âPause Lifeâ
* Dr. Jen Gunter of âThe Vagendaâ
* Older women inspo on Instagram: The Silver Lining 1970
* The Last Showgirl (2024), featuring Pamela Anderson and Jamie Lee Curtis
* Dr. Gabor Mate and a trauma-informed lens
* On Ariana Grande and Cynthia Erivo: âYes, We Need to Talk About Wicked Bodiesâ by Virginia Sole-Smith
* Martha Stewart on Sports Illustrated
BOOK RECOMMENDATIONS
* Hagitude: Reimagining the Second Half of Life by Sharon Blackie
* Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay
* This Changes Everything by (New Zealander) Niki Bezzant
KEY TAKEAWAYS
* âItâs not whatâs wrong with you; itâs what happened to you.âReframing body image struggles and disordered eating in menopause through a trauma-informed lens helps you understand that your reactions arenât personal failures. Theyâre responses to decades of cultural conditioning and systemic misogyny (âthe water we swim inâ).
* Body neutrality is more sustainable than body love.Instead of forcing ourselves to love our changing bodies, especially after years of internalized shame, it can be more empowering to aim for neutrality, or acknowledging, respecting, and caring for our bodies without attaching our worth to how they look.
* Te Ruahinetanga offers a radically different framework for menopause.Learning from MÄori culture, menopause is not a medical problem to "fix," but a sacred life transition into wisdom and elderhood.
Still to come on Season 1 of Modern Hysteria:
* Season 1 Ep. 23: The Clitoris x Orgasm x Pleasure with Cindy Scharkey, RN
* Season 1 Ep. 24: The Fawn Response with
Megan Sherer
* Season 1 Ep 25: Normal versus Abnormal Vaginas x Vulvas x Pelvic Red Flags with Carla Carpenter, OBGyn
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I didnât know sex isnât supposed to hurt.
Did you know that? Penetrative sex is supposed to be free of any unwanted pain. ANY UNWANTED pain.
Thatâs what I learned from Rachel Gelman, physical therapist and sexuality counselor, in this weekâs episode.
I also learned that 75% of women will have painful penetrative sex in their lifetime. đ
Painful sex can be a result of invisible, chronic illness, pelvic floor dysfunction, or a lifetime of dogmatic messaging about sex.
THE TABOO
The taboo we reveal in this episode is that many people â particularly people with vulvas â have had and continue to have painful penetrative sex.
Women in our patriarchal culture are often conditioned to anticipate or accept pain as a part of intimacy, and spend years (decades!) not knowing their experience is not normal (but dreadfully common), and treatable.
LINKS + RESOURCES
The Pelvic People - on a mission to end painful sex
* đ The Ohnut depth-limiting rings
The International Society for the Study of Womenâs Sexual Health (ISSWSH)
* đ„ Find a provider
Pelvic Wellness + Physical Therapy
* đïž Schedule a virtual visit with Rachel Gelman, DPT, CSC
TIME STAMPS
* 02:30 â Why patients come to pelvic floor therapy (often self-referred through Reddit)
* 04:45 â Your pelvic floor muscles and how they affect sex and pain.
* 13:50 â How media and culture condition women to expect sex to be painful.
* 16:30 â Why people push through pain: duty, stigma, survival.
* 18:45 â Texas sex toy laws and why female pleasure is still taboo.
* 23:20 â Vaginal dryness: causes, hormones, and why lube helps but isnât always enough.
* 28:10 â Endo, adeno, PCOS, and fibroids: A quick overview and relevance.
* 32:30 â What to expect in a pelvic floor therapy session
* 41:45 â How to talk to your partner about painful sex.
THE GUEST EXPERT
Dr. Rachel Gelmanâs mission is to make women/people with vulvas aware that certain life events (pregnancy and menopause) can impact their sex life but that there are options to address their sexual health concerns and common issues, like pain with sex or low desire do not need to be accepted as normal.
* đ San Francisco, California
* đ Pelvic Wellness + Physical Therapy: Promoting wellness for anyone with a pelvis
* âđ» Rachelâs blog: The Pelvic Post
* đ± Follow Rachel on Instagram: @pelvichealthsf
KEY TAKEAWAYS
* Sex should be pain free to the extent you want it to be
* Painful penetrative sex can be the result of conditions like endometriosis, adenomyosis, fibroids, or PCOS, pelvic floor dysfunction like vaginismus (which can be a side effect of trauma and/or fear of sex).
* Sex toys, lube, sexuality counseling, and pelvic floor physical therapy are ways to treat painful sex
How to talk to your partner about painful sex
âHey, I was listening to this podcast and they were talking about pain with sex.
âIt's interesting because I've actually had pain with sex and I always thought it was normal, but this lady said, it's actually not normal and it's actually really common, but there's things that can be done about it. I didn't know that, and I didn't realize there were things I could do about it, but I would like to try _.
âI wanted to tell you that I have been having pain.â
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Full informed consent â before you agree to a medical treatment, test, or medication, youâve been given all the information you need in a way you can understand, and youâre able to make the decision freely, without pressure.
This episode uncovers how women â especially Black women â are often prescribed fertility and mental health medications without full informed consent.
⊠and how systemic racism, medical misogyny, and lack of personalized care create dangerous, traumatic, and entirely avoidable outcomes in reproductive and mental health care.
(Because our sex hormones and our stress hormones are inextricably linked, reproductive and mental healthcare go hand-in-hand, but theyâre not always treated as such).
Dr. Cyntia Brown, a clinical pharmacist and fertility expert, shares how her own medical trauma shaped her mission to empower others to ask the right questions, advocate for themselves, and demand better care.
THE TABOO
Even the smartest, most educated women, doctors and pharmacists included, are not safe from being gaslit, coerced, or harmed in our healthcare system.
And when it comes to reproductive and mental health care (which are often intimately intertwined), the stakes are HIGH.
Itâs even more taboo to say that racism and misogyny, not race or risk factors, are why Black women are dying at higher rates in pregnancy and childbirth. Itâs not race; itâs racism.
THE GUEST EXPERT
Cyntia Brown is a doctor of pharmacy and clinical pharmacologist working in the womenâs health sector helping women feel empowered and capable of healing at her concierge practice, Kopela Health.
Links and resources:
* đ± Her Instagram: dr.cyntia.obrown
* đïž Her business: Kopela Health
* đïž Book a consult with Dr. Brown
* đ Shop her favorite products
* đ Her favorite prenatal vitamin
* âČïž Her recommended ovulation tracker: Inito Fertility Monitor
KEY TAKEAWAYS
* You deserve to know the real risks, benefits, alternatives, and long-term effects of the medications youâre prescribedâincluding hormonal birth control, antidepressants, and fertility drugs. If your provider isnât giving you the full picture, thatâs not informed consent.
* Misogyny and racism are baked into the institution of healthcare in the US, by which Black women are disproportionately harmed. And better care isnât necessarily about better providers; itâs about naming and dismantling the systemic issues that lead to increased rates of maternal mortality.
TIME STAMPS
* 1:20: How your partnerâs race or privilege can affect your care
* 3:40: Mental health, fertility care, rX drugs
* 6:58: Withdrawing from psych drugs
* 8:06: Effects of long-term oral birth control on fertility
* 11:00: Believe women!
* 16:21: âBig Pharmaâ
* 19:42: What does âholisticâ really mean?
LISTENER ACTION ITEMS
* â When you're prescribed a medication, remember you can ask:
* When was this drug approved?
* Is it new?
* What are the actual risks and percentages of side effects?
* Would you take this drug yourself?
* â Request pharmacogenomic testing, especially if you've experienced side effects or been on multiple medications. It can help determine how your body uniquely metabolizes drugs and whether a medication is likely to be effective or harmful for you.
* â Get a second opinion. If you feel unsure about your medication or treatment plan, consult with a clinical pharmacist or specialist like Dr. Cyntia Brown who can explain your options and help you advocate for you.
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Upcoming episodes of Modern Hysteria:
* S1E21 Painful Sex with Rachel Gelman, DPT
* S1E22 Menopause x Body Image with Menopause & Misogyny
* S1E23 Pleasure x Orgasm x The Clitoris with Cindy Scharkey, RN
* S1E24 Disorganized Attachment x Relationships with Grace Bithell
* S1E25 Vulvas x Vaginas x Whatâs Normal? with Carla Carpenter, MD
* S1E26 ADHD x Motherhood with Avery Wasmanski
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Hiâ Itâs Micah from Modern Hysteria, podcast and newsletter revealing the taboos of womenâs brains and bodies. This episode is about how medical gaslighting â especially in fertility and pregnancy care â silences women, and why Black women face the highest in a system never built to protect them.
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Raise your hand if you have been personally victimized by oral birth control đ
⊠or had side effects from a medication that were worse than the condition it was supposed to treat. đ
⊠or if you felt like you were talked down to or dismissed by a healthcare provider when you complained about medication or its side effects đ
⊠or if you just stopped asking questions in a medical appointment because you felt annoying or bothersome, even though you had concerns đ
⊠or if you have taken a medication â appropriately prescribed or not â that has altered the course of your life đ
If your hand is raised, this episode is for you.
The Taboo
Even smart, educated women â even medical professionals â can be ignored by their own doctors, especially during fertility and pregnancy care.
Because our stress and sex hormones are deeply connected, reproductive care often overlaps with mental health care. But when women â especially Black women â speak up, weâre often seen as dramatic instead of being believed.
Itâs taboo to talk about how common this is and how dangerous it can be. But during Black Maternal Health Week, we need to say it clearly:
Misogyny and racism are alive in healthcare.And they put womenâs lives at risk â especially Black womenâs.
According to the Johns Hopkins Center for Communication Programs:
This crisis is driven by unconscious bias in the medical system and its actors. In a 2016 survey of white medical students, nearly half held false beliefs about biological differences in Black patients, including thicker skin and less sensitive nerve endings.
Another 2020 study found that Black babies are more likely to live if they are cared for by a Black physician. Recently, the CDC declared racism a public health threat. The maternal mortality crisis in the United States emphasizes the truth behind this declaration: It is racism, not race, that is killing Americaâs Black mothers and babies.
This weekâs guest, Dr. Cyntia Brown, talks about why she helps women understand the meds theyâre given, especially when theyâre trying to get pregnant.
But hereâs the thing: This type of advocacy shouldnât be a privilege. It should be part of humane health care.
Because being treated like a âsilly little girlâ for speaking out about pain and discomfort â or side effects of medications â isnât just insulting.
It can be deadly.
The Guest Expert
Cyntia Onuoha-Brown is a doctor of pharmacy and clinical pharmacologist working in the womenâs health sector helping women feel empowered and capable of healing at her concierge practice, Kopela Health.
Links and resources:
* đ± Her Instagram: dr.cyntia.obrown
* đïž Her business: Kopela Health
* đïž Book a consult with Dr. Brown
* đ Shop her favorite products
* đ Her favorite prenatal vitamin
* âČïž Her recommended ovulation tracker: Inito Fertility Monitor
Key Takeaways
* Medical credentials donât protect patients from dismissal.Even with a doctorate in pharmacy, Cyntia was ignored and minimized, especially in her pregnancy care (and, as we will learn in Part 2 (S1E20), in her mental health care, too).
* Systemic racism and misogyny are baked into medicine.Black women face barriers to quality care not because of race, but because of racism.
* Advocacy is often the only safeguard.The system isnât built to protect womenâs voices. We need providers like Cyntia to help us interpret and question our care.
Time Stamps
* 04:52 â Integrative fertility
* 05:42 â Aside on estrogen, body fat, and fibroids
* 07:04 â Expensive birth control
* 14:01 â Medical gaslighting, dismissal, and self doubt
* 21:54 â Progesterone mini-pill and mood instability
* 28:34 â Racial disparities in PCOS and endometriosis diagnoses
* 30:39 â How Cyntia helps women interpret labs and advocate for themselves
* 32:04 â Restoring the human touch in healthcare
Listener Action Items
* â Ask hard questions. If something feels off, ask questions or for a second opinion (did you know you can ask for your providerâs clinical notes?) even if it feels uncomfortable.
* â Get a second opinion. Especially when youâre being prescribed medications you donât understand and youâre having side effects. Itâs okay to switch providers, too.
* â Know what you're taking. Learn what medications are meant to do, and what they might also be doing as side effects.
* â Talk about it. Share this episode to raise awareness and reduce the shame around medical gaslighting.
Thatâs it for Part 1 of this conversation with Dr. Cyntia Brown. Next week, look out for Part 2 (S1E20), where we dive deeper into
* how fertility meds, hormonal contraceptives, and mental health intersect â especially for women with PMDD, endo, or a history of trauma
* break down how drugs like progesterone can both help and harm
* the ethics of pharmaceutical care,
* why informed consent in womenâs health is often missing
If you've ever wondered âWhy didnât anyone tell me this?â â next weekâs episode is for you.
Does this resonate? Tell me in the comments; I read every single one!
Part 2:
Upcoming episodes of Modern Hysteria:
* S1E21 Painful Sex with Rachel Gelman, DPT
* S1E22 Menopause x Body Image with Menopause & Misogyny
* S1E23 Pleasure x Orgasm x The Clitoris with Cindy Scharkey, RN
* S1E24 Disorganized Attachment x Relationships with Grace Bithell
* S1E25 Vulvas x Vaginas x Whatâs Normal? with Carla Carpenter, MD
* S1E26 ADHD x Motherhood with Avery Wasmanski
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K, thatâs it for this episode.
Talk soon,
Micah
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Have you ever been six months pregnant, doing your very best to hold your pee, crying hysterically, and been told to âCALM DOWN!!!?â
That advice â to âjust relaxâ â is not helpful, especially when youâre pregnant, your bodyâs going through changes, and youâre worried the stress will impact your baby. And maybe even less so when youâre pregnant after a pregnancy loss or complication.
In this episode, Parijat Deshpande explains how the âbody keeps the scoreâ in pregnancy and what we can do about it.
Links + Resources
* đ Stress Solutions Quiz
* đ Follow Parijat @theruvelle on Instagram
* đ» Ruvelle â revolutionizing your high-risk pregnancy
* âđ» The Body Language Journal
* đ The Pregnancy Brain book
The Guest Expert
Parijat Deshpande is the founder of Ruvelle, the only truly trauma-informed company specifically dedicated to improving high-risk pregnancy outcomes, reducing preterm birth, and supporting parents to pass on generational health.
On a mission to end the high-risk pregnancy crisis, she has served and supported thousands of clients through her live events, virtual courses, one-on-one consulting, her bestselling book, Pregnancy Brain: A Mind-Body Approach to Stress Management During a High-Risk Pregnancy, and the Body Language Journal.
Learn more here.
Key Takeaways
1. Stress isnât just in your headâitâs in your whole body.
Pregnancy stress affects your brain, nervous system, hormones, and immune system. Itâs not something you can just âthink away.â Thatâs why advice like âjust relaxâ doesnât work, and can even make you feel worse.
2. Your past pregnancy experiences may linger within body, and healing is possible.
If youâve had a loss, traumatic birth, etc., your body might still be holding onto that stress. Youâre not broken, and you didnât do anything wrong. Somatic healing (body-based work) can help you process it and support your body before, during, or after pregnancy.
Time Stamps
* 7:58: The gaps in care for pregnant people dealing with trauma and chronic stress.
* 17:07: Why 'just relax' doesnât work for pregnant people under stress
* 23:36: How chronic stress affects pregnancy via the nervous, endocrine, and immune systems
* 29:18: Somatic memories
* 34:20: Completing âstress cyclesâ
* 49:17: How the body and brain change during pregnancy and postpartum
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If youâve ever felt like your body was âwrong,â worried way too much about how you look, or spent time poking or prodding your body in front of the mirror, this episode is for you.
Weâre talking about body dysmorphia â what it is, how it shows up, and how we can work through it.
I ask physical therapist Dr. Laura Glazebrook how shame, social media, and toxic positivity affect the way we see ourselves, and how things like therapy, movement, gratitude â and neuroplasticity â can help us reconnect with our bodies and feel more at peace.
The Taboo
Lots of people struggle with body image or body dysmorphia, but itâs still hard to talk about. Weâre often told to âjust be confidentâ or âbe grateful,â which can make us feel ashamed for having real, painful thoughts about how we look. This episode breaks the silence around struggling with your body, and how it doesnât make you vain, broken, or alone; it makes you human.
Time Stamps
* 13:06 â What is body dysmorphia, and where does it come from?
* 19:52 â Dr. Laura shares grounding practices through sensory experience
* 26:39 â Neuroplasticity and brain patterns in BDD
* 31:30 â Gratitude vs. toxic positivity
* 46:52 â Adolescence, incels, and cultural influences
* 56:25 â How to support loved ones with BDD or become more resilience re: body image
Links + Resources
* đ Pelvic Floor Self-Assessment Guide
* Follow Laura on Instagram at @laura.g.dpt
* Lauraâs website
* Adolescence trailer
* Bodies Are Cool childrenâs book
The Guest Expert
Dr. Laura Glazebrook earned her Doctorate in Physical Therapy from University of North Georgia, then spent ten years specializing in neurological injuries. She specialized training to evaluate and treat a variety of pelvic health concerns for all genders and ages, as well as complex spinal conditions including scoliosis and kyphosis.
Laura is also an adult living with severe scoliosis and spinal fusion, and after her two pregnancies and childbirth experiences she became passionate about providing more resources for women during life-altering transformational seasons like pregnancy, postpartum.
* đ Atlanta, GA, USA
* đ„ Treats adolescents and adults with scoliosis, kyphosis and pelvic health concerns, and also coaches women around the world virtually through her website
âIâve lived a lifetime of feeling traumatized and unable to live within my body. Iâve worked my way through crippling body dysmorphia and feeling othered because of the way my body looks (and how others perceive it).
âAs I get closer to middle age I realize that our inner knowing and resilience is extraordinary and Iâm on board for any endeavor that can reassure another human that they are unbelievable and worthy of all the good things they can imagine.â
â Laura Glazebrook, DPT
Key Takeaways
* Body dysmorphia can make us see ourselves in ways that arenât real.It can cause us to fixate on flaws, avoid mirrors or social situations, and even obsess over how we look, sometimes so much that it affects daily life. But itâs more common than we think and not something to be ashamed of.
* Our brains can change, which means healing is possible. âš We can build new thought patterns over time (thanks, neuroplasticity!) with therapy, mindfulness, and gratitude, so we can feel more at home in our bodies.
* Social media and toxic beauty standards fuel body image issues.Curating what we consume â like following body-diverse creators and limiting filters â can protect our mental health. And using gentle, neutral language about our bodies can be powerful!
Thatâs it for this weekâs episode!
Did this resonate with you? Tell me in the comments; I read every single one!
Coming up on Modern Hysteria:
* Pregnancy brain
* Menopause x misogyny x body image
* Pleasure x orgasm
* Vulvovaginal disease (whatâs normal?!)
* Painful sex
* Disorganized attachment
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WELCOME TO PINKPILLED. These mini-sodes expose how patriarchy and medical misogyny affect our brains and bodies.
In honor of Endometriosis Awareness Month, weâre starting off with endometriosis, a little-understood and shockingly-common chronic illness. đ©ž
What is endometriosis?
Endometriosis â or âendoâ â is chronic illness that can affect women and people assigned female at birth from their first period to the end of their lives. It happens when tissue thatâs similar to the lining of the uterus grows outside the uterus, like on:
* ovaries and fallopian tubes
* bladder and bowel
* stomach lining
* lungs and other organs
Endometriosis affects 1 in 10 women and people assigned female at birth (more than diabetes or asthma!), yet SO FEW OF THEM have even heard of it.
Why is endometriosis so bad?
When your body goes through a menstrual cycle wherein hormones tell the lining of your uterus to grow. If you donât get pregnant, your body sheds that lining. Thatâs your period.
But with endometriosis, the tissue outside your uterus also reacts to those hormones, gets thick, breaks down, and bleeds. But that blood outside the uterus has no way to leave your body. It stays trapped inside, causing:
* swelling
* lesions
* scar tissue
* adhesions (when your tissues stick together)
The symptoms can get so severe they are estimated to cost the US economy somewhere between $22 and $80 billion annually in direct medical costs and lost wages.
What does endometriosis feel like?
Endometriosis symptoms can vary, but many people feel:
* bad cramps that donât go away with painkillers
* pain during or after sex
* pain when peeing or pooping
* fatigue
* bloating (sometimes called âendo bellyâ)
* infertility
According to the World Economic Forum, endometriosis may be responsible for up to 50% of unexplained infertility.
How is endometriosis diagnosed?
Right now, the only way to if you have endometriosis is to have a surgery called an exploratory laparoscopy (or âex lapâ), where a doctor looks inside your belly with a camera.
That means a lot of people live for years without getting the right diagnosis â especially teens and women of color, who are more likely to be told their pain is ânormal.â
The difficulties with diagnosis are one of the most insidious effects of endo. Itâs common, but individuals often see an average of eight doctors over 10 years before getting the correct diagnosis. It takes an average of somewhere between 5 and 12 years of symptoms before patients get the help they need.
And in that time, you can be told youâre overreacting, âjust stressed,â or that itâs all in your head. This is medical misogyny in action.
Whatâs the treatment for endometriosis?
There is no cure for endometriosis.
Some patients are put on birth control pills. Others have ablation surgery, in which the affected areas are burned and cauterized. Still others have excision surgery where the endometriomas and lesions are cut away. Both of these procedures have a tendency to leave behind affected tissue, so symptoms often recur.
Hormonal treatments and pain meds are Band-Aids for this whole-body disease.
Why havenât you heard more about endometriosis?
Answer: Medical misogyny in action.
Our medical system â and medical education, even for OBgyns â doesnât always take womenâs pain seriously. Womenâs reproductive pain tends to be pathologized and attributed to psych issues.
Meanwhile, according to the WHO, approximately 10% of reproductive-age women and girls (and people AFAB) worldwide are affected by endometriosis. This equates to around 190 million people.
Still, endometriosis research is severely underfunded. In 2022, the National Institutes of Health (NIH) allocated $27 million to endometriosis research. This averages out to about $2 per patient. In contrast, diabetes, which is comparably prevalent, received $50/patient in funding.
Medical misogyny â the systemic dismissal, devaluation, and underfunding of womenâs health concerns â is baked into nearly every part of how endometriosis is researched, treated, and diagnosed.
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Source Material
WHO endometriosis
Rescripted: Endometriosis
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Most of us hold a deeply-entrenched belief that womenâs value rests on our appearances. Specifically, how well we adhere to a very narrow and problematic standard of beauty: thin, white, feminine, and ageless.
Itâs an impossible standard, and one that we carry with us both consciously and subconsciously. It motivates us to spend, globally, 73 billion USD every year on âanti-agingâ (projected to hit 140.9 billion by 2034), of which North America alone spends $29.2 billion.
This episode is about how this pressure to stay young forever shapes our beliefs and habits around exercise, and what we can do if:
* youâre feeling the shift in your body as you age to more fatigue, stiffness, and slower recovery
* youâve been sold the anti-aging lie and are exhausted by the pressure to stay small, toned, and ageless
* you want better; a relationship with exercise that focuses on joy, strength, and ability âš
The Taboo
Women are taught to treat aging like a failure. That if our bodies get softer, slower, or need more rest, weâre doing something wrong. That we should fight aging tool-and-nail with workouts, diets, Botox, or willpower.
This episode challenges all of that.
Weâre saying:
* Aging isnât a flaw.
* Rest isnât laziness.
* Movement isnât just about looking young; it's about feeling strong and free, now and later.
Weâre not here to anti-age. Weâre here to train for the life we actually want in our 40s, 50s, 60s, and beyond.
Links + Resources
* Bamboo Bodies âąïž
* đ Neuro Warm-Up Video
* Angiâs blog
The Guest Expert
You met Angi McClure in S1E1, when she shared why sheâs not anti-aging but pro-aging.
Angi is a neuro-based movement therapist specializing in age science. She uses functional Chinese medicine through movement (Qigong), nutrition and seasonal lifestyle habits through her movement program called Bamboo Bodiesâą, a movement system based on the seasons and applied neurology.
Key Takeaways
* Train for what you want to do later, not just how you look now. Movement should help you play, explore, and stay strong as you age, not punish your body into shrinking.
* Recovery isnât optional, itâs training. Rest, stillness, and nervous system care are just as important as strength and cardio. Especially in perimenopause, menopause, and post-menopausal women.
* Youâre not broken, and aging is not a failure. Your body is shifting, not falling apart. And thereâs power in working with those changes, not against them.
Timestamps
* 04:05 â Why we need to stop exercising for looks and start training for function
* 08:07 â Aging as âseasonsâ
* 10:36 â Resiliency redefined: bouncing back without wasting resources
* 14:08 â What movement women need in their 30s, 40s, 50s (and why it changes)
* 23:14 â Angiâs movement checklist: nervous system, vision, balance, strength
* 34:12 â Build a movement plan based on what your brain is thirsty for
* 37:21 â Why women must train for the âinternal winterâ with intention
* 44:35 â Stillness is a skill; rest isnât weakness, itâs training
* 50:08 â Pro-aging is a radical act in a culture obsessed with staying young
* 58:38 â Final takeaways + 4 simple action steps to age well, with power
Hereâs whatâs coming up on Modern Hysteria:
* Menopause x body image with Menopause & Misogyny
* Body dysmorphia x resilience with Dr. Laura Glazebrook
* Pregnancy brain with Parijat Deshpande
* A new series of mini-sodes Iâm calling âPink-Pilledâ
⊠I canât wait to share more!
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Fertility is about more than just an egg count or a sperm sample. Itâs a whole-body process. And we often overlook one basic question when trying to conceive (TTC): Are you giving your body the things it needs to thrive outside of your fertility?
In this episode, fertility nutritionist Neema Savvides breaks down how nutrition and other commonly-overlooked health factors impact fertility, why diet culture complicates fertility advice, and what you can do to take control of your reproductive health (instead of feeling at the mercy of your lab results). We discuss:
* What âunexplained infertilityâ really means
* Why IVF is not a fail-safe or magic fix
* How diet culture has infiltrated our understanding of fertility nutrition
* How underlying conditions like nutrient deficiency, restrictive dieting, and thyroid issues can impact fertility (and can be managed)
The Taboo
Fertility struggles and TTC are deeply personal, and using interventions like IVF (in vitro fertilization) and IUI (intrauterine insemination) require us to put a lot of trust in clinicians and the fertility industry. But what if youâre diagnosed with âunexplained infertility,â and the imperfect system thatâs supposed to help you get pregnant is also somewhat to blame?
This episode challenges the unspoken truth that fertility clinics are businesses and sometimes prioritize efficiency â and, potentially, profit â over comprehensive testing or whole-body health, while there are things you can do before or during intervention to support your body and improve chances of success.
The Guest Expert
Neema Savvides is a fertility nutritionist with over twelve years of clinical experience. She specializes in treating clients with PCOS, endometriosis, and using IVF.
* đ± neemasavvides_fertility
* đ 5-Day Habit Challenge: Reset and Reboot
Links + Resources
Key Takeaways
* What we call âunexplained infertilityâ is often un-investigated infertility. Many fertility clinics skip addressing thyroid health, inflammation, and nutrient levels, which could explain why conception isnât happening.
* Fertility nutrition is really about nutrient adequacy, not restriction. Diet culture often pushes âclean eating,â but eating enough and focusing on key nutrients (rather than eliminating foods) is recommended.
* IVF is not a guarantee of pregnancy, and prepping your body matters, because interventions like IVF and IUI donât fix poor egg or sperm quality. Optimizing your nutrition, reducing inflammation, and getting the right tests before starting treatment can improve success rates.
Time Stamps:
* 04:31 | The reality of âunexplained infertilityâ (and why itâs often more un-investigated than unexplained)
* 07:16 | What fertility clinics may not test for, but should
* 14:51 | How diet culture warps our ideas about fertility nutrition
* 18:31 | Key tests for understanding your fertility
* 22:01 | The truth about IVF success rates and what most people donât know before starting treatment
* 25:41 | How nutrition really affects fertility; what to focus on (without food fear)
* 30:01 | âToxinsâ and fertility
* 34:16 | Managing the emotional side of fertility struggles
* 38:31 | Action items â
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â ïž Content warning: This episode contains descriptions of abuse and intimate partner violence
This week, weâre talking about the protective effect of our gal pals on our health, our wellness, and our ability to survive and escape toxic relationships with crisis counselor, coach, author, and podcaster Stephanie McPhail.
We ask and answer: Why do we stay in the cycle of unhealthy romantic relationships, and how can our friendships help us break away?
In this episode:
* The role of social support in our longevity and happiness
* What to do if youâre losing a loved one to a toxic relationship
* How our *girlfriends* can be an escape route from these bad relationships
* How to take steps to make solid friendships
The Taboo
Itâs extremely uncomfortable to tell a friend that their partner is potentially bad for them. Weâre taught to mind our own business when it comes to other peoplesâ relationships, even when we see clear red flags.
The Guest
Stephanie McPhail authored the book Being Love Shouldnât Hurt and hosts the podcast Toxic Love.
âđ» Stephanieâs blog
đ 6 Steps to Recognize + Overcome Toxic Relationships
Time Stamps
03:45 â Guest Introduction: Stephanie McPhail
05:35 â Why women ghost their friends in toxic relationships
09:11 â The Harvard research on relationships and longevity
12:46 â Isolation in toxic relationships
13:41 â Aside: Gaslighting
17:31 â Aside: Trauma Bonding
19:26 â Red flags of a toxic relationship
22:16 â How to support a friend in a toxic relationship
26:26 â Toxic vs. abusive relationships (and the gray area)
40:40 â How to reconnect after ghosting friends
51:55 â Whatâs in your bag?
Action Items
If you feel you are in a toxic relationship:
Listen to the whisper in your head (your gut knows)
Start reconnecting with one friend today, even if itâs just sending one simple text (âSorry Iâve been distant; Iâd love to reconnectâ)
Seek external support (like a therapist or womenâs group)
If your friend is in a toxic relationship:
Keep the door open ("You are always welcome, but your partner is notâ)
Check in regularly (even when they pull away)
Offer a safe exit plan ("If you ever need a place to stay, my door is open.")
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This week weâre talking about one embarrassing and annoying â and common but NOT NORMAL â side effect of childbirth: Peeing in your pants.
In this episode, sports scientist and semi-pro athlete Patricia Siegel walks us through:
* â ïž pelvic floor dysfunction
* đ her battle with urinary incontinence as a mom and runner
The Taboo
PEEING YOUR PANTS IS EMBARRASSING. Or, at least, thatâs the stigma we carry with us, which is wild because urinary incontinence and pelvic floor dysfunction are so common.
Pelvic floor dysfunction is when the muscles in your pelvic floor â which support your bladder, uterus, and rectum and help control peeing, pooping, and even sex â arenât working the way they should.
There are two common â and opposing â forms of pelvic floor dysfunction that can cause urinary incontinence, and both are treatable:
* Weak pelvic floor muscles. Your muscles donât contract like they should.
* Too-tight (hypertonic) pelvic floor muscles. Your muscles are constantly rigid and donât have enough âgiveâ to control your bladder correctly.
Links + Resources
* Patricia in Strong Fitness Magazine
* Trader Joeâs Jojoba Lemongrass Almond Oil
The Guest
* Follow Patricia â @thefitpelvicfloor â on Instagram here
* Patriciaâs website
* Patricia in print
Key Takeaways
â Peeing yourself is common but NOT normal.
Bladder leaks after childbirth, menopause, or high-impact exercise are not something you just have to live with.
Incontinence is a sign of pelvic floor dysfunction and can be treated at any age.
â Kegels are not always the answer.
Some women have muscles that are too tight, and kegels can make symptoms worse.
If you have pain during sex, trouble emptying your bladder, or pelvic tension, you may need relaxation, not just strengthening.
â Look out for an upcoming podcast episode on painful sex with pelvic therapist Rachel Gelman!
â You donât have to stop exercising.
Running, walking, and strength training can support pelvic floor recovery. You donât have to stop doing the things you love and that make you feel like you!
The key is knowing your symptoms, using the right kind of rehab, and making small adjustments to train your pelvic floor the right way.
Time Stamps
* 03:04 - What is the pelvic floor?
* 12:36 - Why normalizing pelvic floor dysfunction (PFD) can be harmful
* 16:03 - Sexual trauma and PFD
* 19:13 - C-sections versus vaginal birth and PFD
* 25:10 - Why kegels arenât a fix-all
* 31:46 - Too weak or too tight? Your PFD checklist
Upcoming
* đ S1E13 Female Friendships x Escaping Toxic Relationships with Stephanie McPhail
* đ€Ź S1E14 Mom Rage with Allison Staiger
* đ S1E15 IVF x Nutrition with Neema Savvides
Sources
Effect of the length of the second stage of labor on pelvic floor dysfunction
Prevalence and Normalization of Stress Urinary Incontinence in Female Strength Athletes
Sexual Abuse History and Pelvic Floor Disorders in Women
Pelvic Floor Muscle Problems Mediate Sexual Problems in Young Adult Rape Victims
Pelvic Healing After Sexual Assault
Pelvic Floor Muscle Training for Treatment of Urinary Incontinence in Women
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This week weâre talking about narcissistic abuse in the workplace.
In this episode, Sarene Leeds takes us back to her tenure at Rolling Stone and experiences with:
* â€ïžâđ©č narcissistic abuse, where a person â usually someone with narcissistic traits â manipulates, controls, and harms others
* đčïž coercive control, a pattern of behavior used to dominate and manipulate someone
* đ¶âđ«ïž gaslighting, when someone makes you doubt your own memory, perception, or sanity
The Taboo
Narcissistic abuse can be subtle and hard to recognize, and it doesnât leave. physical, visible scars, so, often, survivors feel confused, anxious, or like they have to âwalk on eggshells."
There wasnât much of a public discussion about emotional abuse or coercive control in the workplace when Sarene was at Rolling Stone, especially because it was before the rise of the #MeToo movement in 2017, which exposed workplace sexual assault and harassment. #MeToo led to more awareness of toxic work environments and made it easier for survivors to see each other.
Narcissistic abuse at work is still very much an issue shaded with doubt, skepticism, and bureaucracy.
Links + Resources
* đ§ âEmotional Abuse Is Realâ podcast
* đ° Exclusive: Women staffers of Jann Wennerâs Rolling Stone get their turn to speak
* đ§ Breaking Down the Nuances of Narcissistic Abuse with Sarah Jacobs, Esq., and Jamie Berger, Esq. (from Emotional Abuse Is Real)
The Guest
Sarene Leeds is a professional writer and podcaster with a masterâs degree in professional writing from NYU. Back in 2014, she resigned from her dream job at Rolling Stone because she was being emotionally abused daily by her narcissistic boss. Nearly a decade later, she launched âEmotional Abuse Is Real,â a podcast dedicated to sharing the stories of her fellow emotional and narcissistic abuse survivors.
Sarene is now a contributing writer to womenâs health and fertility website Rescripted.
* đ Location: New Jersey, USA
* đ± @sareneleedswrites on Instagram
* đ Discover Your Brand Voice
* âđ» The Critical Communicator
Time Stamps
* 03:47: Defining narcissistic abuse
* 06:25: Gaslighting & coercive control in the workplace
* 14:05: Why narcissistic abuse is hard to prove
* 21:37: Aside: What are fireable offenses?
* 31:59: Why telling your story is powerful
* 46:50: Advice for survivors
Key Takeaways
* Narcissistic abuse thrives in the âgray areaâ of plausible deniability, which makes it hard to recognize and prove.
* Coercive control and gaslighting are ways narcissistic abusers erode someoneâs confidence and reality (in the workplace or in other relationships).
* Being believed is often THE biggest hurdle for survivors, followed by the lack of institutional support.
* Journaling and storytelling can be healing ways to process your experiences with narcissistic abuse and put it in a narrative.
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Trauma therapist Grace Bithell explains:
* đ§ complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD), an oft-overlooked mental health condition that affects your self-image and relationships
* đ€ reparenting yourself to heal from CPTSD (and âbreak the cycleâ)
The sneaky thing about CPTSD is that the people who have it are often the last to believe it. Most people havenât even heard of it.
I, too, brushed off my first PTSD diagnosis, thinking it was ludicrous: Veterans get PTSD, for fuckâs sake! I havenât been in combat. đ
* PTSD typically develops after a single traumatic event or a series of traumatic events that are clearly identifiable.
* CPTSD (Complex PTSD) is caused by chronic, repeated trauma â often in childhood or long-term abuse.
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder is what Grace calls âthe survivorâs illness.â Iâve also heard it called âthe shame disorder.â Itâs a set of learned survival mechanisms that helped you cope as a child but, in your adult life, can lead to:
* anxiety
* hyper-vigilance
* difficulty regulating emotions
* deep shame and poor self image
* trust issues
Links + Resources
* Grace and I both learned about CPTSD in this book by Stephanie Foo: Why My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma
* THE CPTSD book: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by psychotherapist Pete Walker
* Graceâs blog about trauma, OCD, and CPTSD
The Guest
Grace Bithell is a licensed clinical social worker who specializes in helping people who had âdifficult parents.â She grew up in a fostering family which was her first exposure to complex childhood trauma and inspired her to become a trauma therapist (and sheâs been published seven times in Fostering Families Today!)
* đ Location: Utah, USA
* đ± @theguiltgirl on Threads
Get in touch with Grace here.
Key Takeaways
1ïžâŁ CPTSD affects your emotions, relationships, and view of yourself. It is caused by long-term trauma in which a person feels unsafe, unseen, or trapped.
2ïžâŁ Shame feels like a personal flaw, but itâs a survival response. CPTSD usually comes with deep wells of shame because you learned to blame yourself rather than recognize your needs were not being met.
3ïžâŁ Reparenting yourself is a way to start healing from CPTSD. That means: validating your own emotions; setting boundaries; and responding kindly to yourself.
Time Stamps
* 4:57: What is CPTSD?
* 10:24: The difference between CPTSD and PTSD
* 17:47: Emotional flashbacks
* 30:19: Parenting with CPTSD
* 46:51: CPTSD red flags
Thatâs all for this episode. If this hit home, please leave a comment and let me know (I read every single one!) or share with someone who may need to hear it.
Upcoming
* S1E11 Narcissistic Abuse x Telling Your Story with Sarene Leeds
* S1E12 Pelvic Floor Dysfunction x Incontinence with Patricia Siegel
* S1E13 Female Friendships x Escaping Toxic Relationships with Stephanie McPhail
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This episode confronts the deeply-ingrained taboo that womenâs sexual desire should be effortless, constant, and primarily for the benefit of others.
We'll talk about the sex you might have:
* out of obligation
* to âcheck it off your to-do listâ
* to âtalk yourself intoâ
The Taboo
* Weâre told that a âgoodâ woman is sexually availableâbut not âtoo much.â
* Weâre taught that if we donât want sex, something must be wrong with us.
* Weâre conditioned to see our sexuality as a duty, not a source of personal pleasure.
The Guest
Lucy Rowett is a certified sexologist and sex coach who helps women and people with vulvas let go of sexual shame.
đ Location: Vienna, Austria
đ Workbook: How To Rock Your Bedroom and Ask For What You REALLY (really, really), Want In Bed
đ§ Podcast: The Naked and Unashamed Life
Time Stamps
* 4:35: Purity culture and sexual conditioning
* 8:06: People-pleasing and burnout
* 13:18: The science of stress x sex
* 16:23: Why some women struggle with desire
* 20:37: The fawn response
Resources + Links
đ Sex When You Donât Feel Like It by Cindy Darnell
đ Come As You Are by Emily Nagoski
đ Esther Perel, psychotherapist
đ Women Who Work Too Much by Tamu Thomas
đ Masters of Sex (2013-2016)
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â ïž Content warning: This episode on postpartum care and maternal mental health includes mentions of postpartum psychosis and infanticide
In Part 2 of my conversation with birth researcher and postpartum doula Kelsey Marr, we talk PMDs â perinatal mood disorders â like postpartum depression, anxiety, and psychosis. Kelsey gives practical strategies for preventing PMD and the importance of planning, setting boundaries, and creating community so we can thrive, not just *survive*, early motherhood.
đ§ Hear Part 1: S1E7 Postpartum Care x Maternal Mental Health
Time stamps
* 02:42: Kelseyâs recommendations for planning for postpartum
* 07:22: Using your postpartum plan as a âscapegoatâ
* 08:23: My personal experience of postpartum anxiety
* 10:04: Defining perinatal mood disorders (PMDs)
* 12:33: âBaby bluesâ versus postpartum depression (PPD)
* 15:39: Postpartum anxiety (PPA) and intrusive thoughts
* 19:59: Our culture of postpartum care and partner involvement
* 23:01: Practical tips for preventing PMDs
* 27:57: How to support postpartum parents
5 key takeaways from this episode:
Postpartum planning is essential
Start planning for postpartum early in pregnancy, like by writing down a list of boundaries and expectations and roles. This can help prevent misunderstandings and resentment.
â Make a ânoâ list during pregnancy to eliminate unnecessary stressors and set boundaries / limits.
Set boundaries and ask for help
Many new parents struggle with setting boundaries during a huge life transition (especially if they have people-pleasing tendencies!). Having a written plan to communicate needs to family and friends can help us avoid conflict and be the âscapegoatâ for setting boundaries.
â Connect with professionals like doulas, lactation consultants, or mental health professionals before birth.
Perinatal mood disorders (PMDs) are common but complex
PMDs like postpartum depression and anxiety occur for lots of new parents, particularly if they were prone to anxiety and depression before pregnancy and childbirth. They might manifest as extreme irritability, paranoia, or negative feelings toward the baby.
PMDs donât necessarily resolve in the first few weeks after childbirth and often require professional support, like from a mental health professional.
The role of culture and community in postpartum care
Our society â the US and Canada in particular â puts an overwhelming burden on new moms, often without adequate support systems. We need core community, as well as involvement from partners to mitigate the risk of PMDs (more so even than paid leave).
Showing up for new parents
Friends and loved ones can offer tangible help for postpartum parents like cooking meals, babysitting older kids, and doing chores (while respecting boundaries!).
â Sustained help beyond the initial weeks of postpartum is crucial; continue to check in on postpartum moms after the first three weeks - three months.
The guest expert
Dr. Kelsey Marr (PhD) quit her job as a birth researcher in 2023 to become a full-time doula. She helps expecting and new parents navigate pregnancy, birth, and postpartum by helping them find evidence-based information, and build their research skills and confidence to make their own best birth/postpartum choices.
* đ Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada
* đ eBook: âIs This Normal?â Evidence-Based Guide to Your First Trimester of Pregnancy
* đ©đŒâđ» Blog: Expecting Evidence
* đ± Social: @collectivecarehfx
Q+A
How can we create a plan to support people postpartum to help avoid perinatal mood disorders like postpartum anxiety and depression?
KM: One of the things I love to do with my clients is to start their postpartum planning really early in pregnancy. Iâm doing this myself, even though Iâm only 10 weeks along. For someone with a history of anxiety or depression, we know that theyâre more likely to experience a perinatal mood disorder. Thatâs why itâs so important to find a therapist who can support you during pregnancy and postpartum, or to talk to your current therapist about whatâs coming up for you.
What do boundaries have to do with planning for postpartum?
KM: A big trigger for many people is boundariesâmany of us donât know what our boundaries are until theyâre crossed.
I encourage my clients to think about things like, âDo I want visitors? What kind of help do I want with my baby?â I even have them write it down, journal about it, and share that plan with their support peopleâpartners, family, and friendsâbefore the baby is born. That way, those expectations are clear, and youâre not having those conversations when youâre in the fog of postpartum.
What is a perinatal mood disorder (PMD)?
KM: A a perinatal mood disorder is any sort of mood or anxiety disorder that happens during pregnancy or clinically it's defined as the first year postpartum, but we know that these things can last a lot longer.
Just that first year can feel like things like feeling intense anger or irritability, having trouble falling asleep, trouble concentrating, trouble making decisions, withdrawing, having negative feelings about the baby, lacking energy.
It's really the same sorts of symptoms that we see with depression or anxiety or psychosis, but they're specifically relating to this transition in pregnancy and postpartum.
Checklist: How to prepare for postpartum (and mitigate risk of perinatal mood disorders)
Kelsey recommends the following:
* Make sure youâre on the same page with your partner about what life will look like after baby arrives
* Build healthy habits while pregnant (sleep, movement, diet)
* Lowering lifestyle stress
* Make a ânoâ list of things you do not want to do when youâre a new mom
* Find your professionals before you need them badly: Physical therapist, mental health professional, postpartum doula, etc.
Thank you for checking out this episode. Leave me a comment and tell me what you think!
Upcoming episodes include:
* S1E9 People Pleasing x Libido with Lucy Rowett
* S1E10 CPTSD x Shame x Reparenting with Grace Bithell
Stay tuned!
Micah
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This week weâre saying the quiet parts OUT LOUD about why the postpartum chapter of our lives often feels overwhelming and isolating (how did we get here??) and how systemic factors â like lack of support or maternity leave â exacerbate postpartum anxiety and depression.
Time stamps
* [05:55] Becoming a postpartum doula
* [07:12] What is IVF?
* [11:26] Comparing postpartum care: Scandinavia vs. North America
* [15:46] Prenatal genetic testing
* [12:59] What evidence-based postpartum care really means
* [18:48] What does a postpartum doula do?
* [23:18] Is postpartum care a luxury?
* [26:12] The cult of good motherhood
* [28:42] Systemic gaps in postpartum care
* [32:06] What new moms really need
Top 3 takeaways
â The mainstream culture of early motherhood in the US and Canada fails new moms.
Unlike places like Sweden, where moms get paid time off, free nurse visits, and affordable childcare, many moms here feel alone and overwhelmed after giving birth (which can contribute to perinatal mood disorders).
â The âcultâ of good motherhood can make postpartum mental health struggles worse.
Society puts a lot of pressure on moms to do everything perfectly (especially since the advent of social media). This stress can lead to or exacerbate postpartum anxiety and depression.
â Having a support system to ready to go before birth can really help.
Whether itâs hiring a postpartum doula, getting help from family and friends, or talking to your healthcare professionals, having a plan for support can make postpartum life - and information overload â easier (we break down Kelseyâs list of action items in Part 2!)
Do you wish you had a postpartum doula? Got FOMO? Tell me:
The guest expert
Dr. Kelsey Marr (PhD) quit her job as a birth researcher in 2023 to become a full-time doula. She helps expecting and new parents navigate pregnancy, birth, and postpartum by helping them find evidence-based information, and build their research skills and confidence to make their own best birth/postpartum choices.
* đ Location: Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada
* đ eBook: âIs This Normal?â Evidence-Based Guide to Your First Trimester of Pregnancy
* đ©đŒâđ» Blog: Expecting Evidence
* đ± Social: @collectivecarehfx
Resources and links đ
Mentioned in this episode:
* Touched Out: Motherhood, Misogyny, Consent, and Control by Amanda Montei
* The Danish Way of Parenting by Jessica Joelle Alexander and Iben Sandahl
* Some of my fav Scandinavian baby brands: Liewood; SmÄfolk; Bibs; Stokke
Q&A from the Episode
What does a postpartum doula do?
KM: A postpartum doula is a trained expert in postpartum care. So they are a non-clinical professional. I don't work in a hospital as a postpartum doula. I'm not a nurse or a doctor. I can't diagnose anything.
What I do is offer care to birthing people and new families from an educational level through a practical support level, emotional level, and a community level.
Are postpartum doulas a luxury?
KM: For a lot of people, it is a luxury because I am somebody who you end up paying for my time and my expertise. I know in Canada and the United States, there are insurance companies that will cover postpartum doula services. So that's an option for some people.
But the reality is that even though there are doulas who do this work on a volunteer basis, not everybody has access to it.
What do you wish all new moms had after childbirth?
KM: I wish every new parent had communityâreally like very hands-on, practical, open-hearted community. And that doesn't mean I wish everybody had close familial connections or close friends.
Community can look like a lot of different things. Whether that's finding your support team of professionals before you go into postpartum... a therapist, a doula, a pelvic physio âall of these professionals can take things off your plate in those early months.
đ€« ML: Stay tuned for an upcoming episode on pelvic floor dysfunction and incontinence!
TL;DR
New moms in the U.S. and Canada often struggle with little support after having a baby, which can lead to feelings of isolation and mental health challenges like postpartum anxiety and depression. This episode explores how gaps in postpartum care, unrealistic societal expectations, and the pressure to be a "perfect mom" make it even harder for moms to get the help they need.
I hope you like this episode, friend.
Kelsey will be back next week with Part 2 of our convo on postpartum mental health and practical advice for showing up for the new parents in our lives.
Up next:
* People-Pleasing x Libido with Lucy Rowett
* Shame x CPTSD with Grace Bithell
* Narcissistic Abuse x Telling Your Story with Sarene Leeds
Talk soon â
Micah
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One of the defining moments in my health was the birth of my son in 2019. Like many moms who experienced traumatic childbirth, I grieved (and still grieve) the loss of the birth and pregnancy I so desired. Instead, I felt:
* guilt, grief, and anger that my body âlet me downâ
* invalidated by comments like, âat least your baby is okayâ
* pressure to âbounce backâ after birth despite the trauma I experienced.
Can you relate?
In this episode I ask OBGyn Dr. Caledonia âCaliâ Buckheit:
* what constitutes birth trauma?
* how to show up for loved ones who experience traumatic childbirth
* how to think about âbirth plans,â and when they go awry
* what permission we might need to heal from birth trauma
This episode will resonate if you:
* Have experienced childbirth that didnât go as planned and had to navigate the emotional aftermath.
* Want to support a friend or loved one who has gone through a traumatic birth experience.
* Are an expectant parent seeking advice on how to approach birth plans.
* Struggle with feelings of guilt, disappointment, or grief related to your birth experience.
â ïž Trigger warning: This episode contains descriptions of medical injury and illness.
I did my first load of newborn laundry with joy and anticipation in January 2019.
I was 29 weeks pregnant with my son, who did tumbling summersaults like the clothes in the dryer while I folded his tiny garments on my round belly.
Like a lot of (first time) moms, I had a plan for how my son would come into the world. It involved mindful birthing, lavender essential oil, and a meticulously-curated playlist.
Heâd wear the softest grey onesie to come home from the hospital, which I folded and packed in the hospital âgo bagâ Iâd grab on the way out the door in late March when I went into labor and my contractions were five minutes apart.
You know what they say about the best-laid plans of mice and men (and moms), right?
They go awry.
I finished folding the laundry, put on the winter parka that no longer zipped over my pregnant self, and went out to shovel the driveway, where I slipped on ice and fell hard on the handle of the snow shovel.
In triage at the hospital I was told my baby was okay, but, dear God, my blood pressure was high.
Before I knew it I was hospitalized with preeclampsia for a month, then induced to have my son before my organs started failing. He was born six weeks early and spent his first weeks in the neonatal intensive care unit, or NICU.
After a month confined to the labor-and-delivery unit, I clung to the remnants of my birth plan â the mindfulness, the lavender, and the playlist, and the no epidural â until my body started to fail, labor stalled, and we lost my sonâs heartbeat.
Duke- and Dartmouth-trained obstetrician-gynecologist Caledonia âCaliâ Buckheit, MD doesnât put a lot of stock in birth plans anymore. And not just because sheâs seen her fair share of patients who, like me, crumbled under the disappointment and loss of control, but because her own birth plans failed, twice. And she barely survived the second.
âI was gonna deliver, like, two weeks before I graduated from residency and then go off into the sunset on my maternity leave, and have some time off before starting my attending job.â
âThat's where listeria came in. I ended up delivering three months early.â
Listen to the episode to hear Caliâs story.
Now, Cali is in private practice where her special interests include minimally invasive surgery, menopause, and contraception. She regularly counsels patients and their partners through the biggest transitions and traumas of their lives.
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Q+A with Cali Buckheit, MD
What is birth trauma, and what are common types you see in your practice?
CB: âOne piece of my birth trauma came from losing the outcome I expected for my pregnancy⊠It really felt like I had to grieve the loss of all of what I thought I was going to have in my pregnancy, in my birth, in my postpartum experience.â
â Trauma often arises when unexpected complicationsâlike preeclampsia, gestational diabetes, or emergenciesâcause fear and overwhelm.
How can we think realistically about âbirth plans?â
CB: âMore important than the specifics are: Whoâs in your corner? Who are my providers? Who are the people I trust? What do I want? I want to feel safe. I want to feel like I understand whatâs going on.â
â Focus on trust and safety rather than fixating on specifics like epidurals or delivery type.
How do you recommend showing up for someone who has experienced birth trauma?
CB: âYouâre not going to make it okay⊠Instead, focus on being supportive, being kind, and providing meaningful support. Like my colleagues and friends showing up and taking care of my other child so my husband and I could go to the NICU togetherâhuge.â
âAsk more interesting questions instead of just saying, âCongratulations.â Instead, ask, âWhat was good and what was bad about your delivery?â Because itâs not usually one emotion. There are these beautiful moments, but also terrifying ones.â
â Practical actions, not empty reassurances, make the difference.
What permissions do women need to start healing from birth trauma?
CB: âA lot of self-love. Like, what I am and where I am is enough, even if none of this feels okay or feels good⊠I think as women, we feel like we should be able to do it all. But thatâs not true. Thatâs something weâve told ourselves, and itâs not true.â
What role does social media or community play in healing from birth trauma?
CB: âThereâs a group called Preemiehood that talks about things you would only understand if youâd been in the NICU. It makes you feel not alone. It makes you feel seen.â
What misconceptions about birth trauma should we challenge?
âWe have this desire to make everything okay. But itâs not okay. None of it is okay, but itâs happening. Weâre going through it one step at a time. Let go of the idea that labor, delivery, and childbirth are supposed to be these beautiful, happy times.â
Key moments in this episode
* 8:18: The unexpected nature of traumatic childbirth
* 10:48: Letting go of your birth plan
* 26:43: The world of the NICU mom
* 45:42: How to show up for someone who had a traumatic childbirth
* 46:09: Why traumatic childbirth is so emotionally complex
* 50:01: Why your friends and community are so healing
Connect with Cali
đČ Follow her on Instagram, Threads, and TikTok
đ„ Are you in the Raleigh, NC area? Make an appointment with Dr. Cali Buckheit here.
Thanks for reading and listening, friend.
In the next episode of Modern Hysteria weâll do a deep-dive on PMADs, or perinatal mood disorders like:
* postpartum anxiety
* postpartum depression
Iâll interview birth researcher and doula Kelsey Marr about why we develop postpartum mood disorders and how we can plan practically to heal and avoid them.
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Hi, friend.
This is Micah Larsen, host of the Modern Hysteria podcast and newsletter exposing the taboo topics of womenâs health so you feel seen, heard, and can live without shame.
I spent one morning this week in the doctorâs office, watching a dizzying number of vials of my blood drawn for a battery of tests. For the past few months Iâve been overtaken by joint pain, fatigue, and depression. Could it be explained by surgical menopause? Neuroinflammation? Rheumatoid arthritis? So far, the results have yielded nothing except a failing attempt at hormone replacement therapy.
One reason this episode is close to my heart â and maybe yours, too â is because Iâve often felt isolated in my journey to find the source of my pain and illness. It was life-changing to realize core psychological wounds may explain mysterious pain and discomfort you may think are âall in your head.â
This episode explores how unresolved trauma â particularly attachment wounds from childhood â impacts womenâs mental, emotional, and physical health. Megan Sherer, a holistic therapist and relationship coach in Seattle, WA, unpacks the connection between isolation, chronic illness, and the bodyâs stress response.
This episode will resonate if you:
* Feel like your experiences donât âqualifyâ as âtraumaâ (but still leave you feeling uneasy or hurt)
* Struggle with chronic pain or unexplained physical symptoms
* Have an autoimmune condition
* Have ever felt dismissed or âcrazyâ when explaining your health concerns
* Struggle to feel like you âdeserveâ to be loved
Does this sound familiar? As Megan mentions in this episode, around 80% of people diagnosed with autoimmune conditions are women.
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Attachment Theory
Attachment theory, introduced by John Bowlby explains how early relationships with caregivers shape our ability to form and maintain emotional bonds. Our early attachmentsâsecure or insecureâaffects how we connect with others, regulate emotions, and navigate relationships as adults.
Note: Your attachment style can change over time.
If you have a secure attachment:
* youâre probably comfortable with intimacy and independence, trusting in relationships, and can communicate effectively.
* your caregivers were consistently responsive, supportive, and nurturing.
If you have an anxious (preoccupied) attachment:
* you may have a fear of abandonment, need constant reassurance, get preoccupied with relationships, and are sensitivity to rejection.
* your caregivers were inconsistentâsometimes responsive, sometimes unavailableâleading to uncertain warmth, love, and support.
If you have an avoidant (dismissive) attachment:
* you may avoid closeness, value independence over intimacy, struggle to trust others, and downplay emotional needs.
* your caregivers were emotionally distant, neglectful, or dismissive of your needs.
If you have a disorganized (fearful avoidant) attachment:
* you have a mix of anxious and avoidant behaviors; you want closeness but you fear intimacy, and this often resulting in chaotic or conflicted relationships.
* your caregivers were a source of both comfort and fear, often due to abuse, neglect, or trauma.
Another note: There are multiple criticisms of attachment theory, including that it overemphasizes early childhood development and underemphasizes the role of genetics.
Major moments from this episode: Q+A with a holistic therapist
What is trauma?
MS: I think when people hear that word, it can be, sometimes, a little bit polarizing. Peopleâs minds often go to the idea of what we call âbig-T trauma;â those overtly, extreme, traumatic experiences that everyone would consider to be devastating or challenging, like accidents and death and war, and these extreme examples of trauma that can impact us as individuals as well as the collective.
And if you havenât had those experiences, then there can be this tendency to say, like, âI havenât experienced trauma. Like, my life hasnât been that bad; who am I to complain?â Kind of thing.
But the reality is that a lot of the work that I do, and that is really impactful and interesting, especially when we get into conversations about attachment work, are what we might call âlittle-T traumas.â
So: More subtle experiences that impact us greatly, but that we might not have felt weâve had the permission in the past to explore, because, again, maybe, we think: âItâs not that bad,â or that other people have had it worse.
What causes us to feel traumatized?
MS: The most important thing to identify in the realm of trauma is that itâs not actually the experience itself thatâs the trauma; itâs the aftermath.
Itâs essentially how our psyche perceives that experience. And one really central component of something being traumatic is the component of isolation. So, if we feel like weâre alone in the experience, we donât have any sort of support or social system to lean on when weâre navigating that challenge, it can then present as trauma to our psyche, as something that we feel overwhelmed by, that we donât have the capacity to manage.
Thatâs a really important distinction, especially when weâre talking about childhood traumas and childhood wounds, because, when youâre a kid whoâs not getting your needs met fully, that is an inherently isolating experience. You donât have anyone to go to talk to. Youâre not talking to your other seven-year-old friends, going, like, âAre your parents like this?â And: âDo you feel this way?â We donât have the tools or capacity at that point. So we feel like itâs just us. And isolation can really overwhelm the nervous system.
What is âattachment?â
MS: Itâs how we learn to form bonds and connections with other human beings. And the first people we learn that from is our parents. The first person we learn that from is our mother.
Our nervous system is really imprinted by her nervous system, and informed by the state of her nervous system when weâre still developing in the womb.
How do we form an attachment?
MS: In those early years of our lives, we learn a lot about our place in the world, and what love is or isnât available to us, and what we have to do in order to maybe perform or earn that love, or feel worthy of it.
And thatâs what Iâm talking about when we talk about âattachment trauma.â Itâs those wounds, those misunderstandings that have caused us to feel separate from the love and connection that is inherently our birthright.
What does attachment have to do with chronic illness?
MS: Weâre seeing more and more these days, women who are experiencing chronic symptoms, chronic pain, chronic illness, that are often, sort of ⊠mystery symptoms, like they don't have clear diagnoses, or definitions in the realm of Western, allopathic medicine. And women are often left feeling, like, âIâm crazy.â And I love the name of your podcast, because this is going back many, many years â women have often been called âhystericalâ for simply pointing out, calling out, what isnât okay in their relationships, in our culture, in our society.
And womenâs nervous systems are attuned to those imbalances. When thereâs ruptures in relationships, we feel that deeply, and it impacts our entire system, our immunity, our physical, mental, emotional health. And, you know, thatâs why weâre seeing 80% of people who live with autoimmune conditions are women.
How do attachment wounds manifest in the body?
MS: You can imagine that, if you were a little kid who felt fear; maybe one of your parents is upset, and theyâre getting angry, and weâre scared that theyâre angry, and scared about what that might mean for us, when our bodies feel that fear and go into that stress response, you kind of contract, right? Like, your muscles get tense and tight, and your bodyâs in kind of this holding pattern: Bracing to either fight, flee or freeze.
When those cycles of stress response are not completed, like, when we donât actually get to resolve it and realize, like, okay, the threat is no longer a threat, or, âIâm safe, all is well,â and get the support and co-regulation from another nervous system that we need, when that doesnât happen, we have this really intricate system of tissue in our body called fascia. It lies beneath the surface of your skin. Itâs, like, this connective tissue, and you can almost think of it like cotton candy, like that really thin sort of fibrous type of tissue, that connects all of our muscles and nerves, and joints, and bones, and internal organs.
And, when we have those patterns of contraction, over and over again, that fascia starts to tighten and weâre not getting as healthy of blood flow. If thereâs an area of tightness, of stagnation, the blood isnât flowing there efficiently, and when that happens, inflammation is created.
If fresh blood flow and fresh oxygen arenât getting to all of our cells to deliver the nutrients they need, our bodyâs just not working as efficiently as it could be.
[Inflammation] leads to symptoms, which can be in the form of pain, can be in the form of illness, or disease.
How does trauma relate to chronic illness?
MS: I love this analogy: Imagine that we all have this inherent capacity to process these stressors. Imagine, if you will, a container, like a cup or bucket. And we all start with an empty cup, and things like emotional stressors, physical and environmental stressors, things our body just, like, has to work to process; those things start to take up space in our cup.
Trauma takes up more space in that container. It takes a lot of energy for the body to hold unresolved trauma because weâre essentially staying in that state of fight-or-flight.
Weâre staying in that chronic, sympathetic activation of the nervous system when weâre not meant to be there 100% of the time. [--] It gets to the point where itâs at capacity, every new thing that's added starts to overflow.
The overflow is the chronic symptoms that we experience.
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Time Stamps
* 1:57: What causes us to become traumatized?
* 3:51: What does chronic illness have to do with attachment and trauma?
* 5:03: The impact of trauma on parenting
* 10:32: What happens in your brain and body when you experience trauma
* 12:22: âMy body is betraying meâ
* 24:13: Was what happened to me âtrauma?â
* 28:44: Identifying emotional wounds
* 30:15: Attachment styles and examples
Connect with Megan
Meganâs book, Choose Yourself, out in May 2025 from Sounds True Publishing, is out on preorder in February 2025. Get on her email list here to stay in the loop.
â Get her Love Blueprint workbook (free) here
â Access Meganâs meditations here
Thank you for listening and reading, friend.
Our next episode (S1E6) is about a different type of trauma. Itâs an interview with OB/Gyn Cali Buckheit, MD about her experience developing a life-threatening case of listeria while 27 weeks pregnant with her second child, and how it forever impacted the way she communicates with her patients who experience birth trauma.
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Talk soon
â Micah
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