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657. Sixty-One from lara's hype eng vol. AO.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Sixty-one sessions since January twenty-seventh
Five and a half months, body still reporting for duty
I've put it through some things I won't list here
It showed up anyway — that's basically a miracle
[Verse 2]
The brain loves ritual, that's not a flaw, that's firmware
The hacker picked this one and then he paid for it
Which turned out to matter more than I expected
You don't throw a gift away for something more important
[Chorus]
Can't waste it on the cat
Can't waste it on the cat
Sixty-one happened anyway
Despite the more important things I had
Gratitude is strange when you're the one who did the damage
But here we are — sixty-one
Can't waste it on the cat
[Bridge]
Thankful to the body for not holding a grudge
Thankful to the brain for needing something weekly
Most thankful to the person who just quietly sponsored
A ritual I never would have chosen for myself
[Chorus]
Can't waste it on the cat
Can't waste it on the cat
Sixty-one happened anyway
Despite the more important things I had
Gratitude is strange when you're the one who did the damage
But here we are — sixty-one
Can't waste it on the cat
[Outro]
Sixty-one
Since January twenty-seventh
The body functional
The ritual held -
630. Light. Form. Texture. from lara's hype eng vol. AN.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Where does taste come from — nobody explains.
Exposure, fluency, a decorative facade.
There's a difference between tasteless and no taste at all.
I didn't know which one I had.
First apartment. Second. Third. Fourth.
Which sentences stuck. Which ones left.
Who seemed enormous then.
How hard all of it shifted.
[Chorus]
Light. Form. Texture.
Rhythm. Style. How things connect.
She named what I'd been looking at
without knowing I was looking.
Triple point of water —
taste, bad taste, and nothing there.
The receptors existed. They were just quiet.
[Verse 2]
Without receptors the whole environment's a screen.
It opens doors. You don't care about the doors.
She showed me: you care about things
you didn't think you cared about.
I don't always have the energy to notice.
To let it move through me. To use it.
But when the slowness comes —
I feel enormously rich.
[Chorus]
Light. Form. Texture.
Rhythm. Style. How things connect.
She named what I'd been looking at
without knowing I was looking.
Triple point of water —
taste, bad taste, and nothing there.
The receptors existed. They were just quiet.
[Outro]
Who seems enormous now. -
Saknas det avsnitt?
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620. Shustrik, 7 from lara's hype eng vol. AM.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Seven times the kilograms
two and a half times tall
the mischief and the feeling
I can't measure that at all
You're growing me in every direction
every single day
special emphasis on
neuroplasticity
[Chorus]
Shustrik, little cat
stay healthy, stay curious
stay exactly who you are
May the 8th be with you
May the 8th be with you
[Verse 2]
Pokémon are almost gone
to the back of history
but you stay brave and kind
and you stay a mystery
May the people around you be good ones
who'll catch you if you fall
and I'll try to be a slightly
more better mom to you
[Chorus]
Shustrik, little cat
stay healthy, stay curious
stay exactly who you are
May the 8th be with you
May the 8th be with you
[Outro]
Happy birthday, little cat
Happy birthday, little cat -
615. Slave to the Slot from lara's hype eng vol. AM.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Woke up, walked into the bathroom
Thought: I have things to do
I'll shower in the evening
Brain said: what do you mean, evening?
Walked out, stared at my clothes
Brain doesn't know what to do with your things
When the order has been this rudely broken
When the order has been this rudely broken
[Chorus]
Had to comply
Had to cancel the improv
Take the shower in the designated slot
The designated slot
Yours as always —
Slave to the slot
Yours as always —
Slave to the slot
[Verse 2]
This isn't discipline
This isn't willpower
Brain just doesn't know what to do
With your errands and your outfit
When the structure has been rudely broken
It refuses to negotiate
Slot is a slot
Slot is a slot
[Chorus]
Had to comply
Had to cancel the improv
Take the shower in the designated slot
The designated slot
Yours as always —
Slave to the slot
Yours as always —
Slave to the slot
[Outro]
Improv cancelled
Order restored
Yours as always -
612. Let's See If I Can Enjoy It from lara's hype eng vol. AM.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
First time in I don't know how many years
I bought something for myself
not because it was time
not because I had to
Spent actual money on it
disproportionate to its utility
utility of object: zero
desire: present
[Chorus]
Let's see if I can enjoy it
let's see if I can
if not I'll quit for another N years
if not I'll quit
[Verse 2]
When someone gives it — fine, I like that
when I pay myself — usually no
but this time I tried to practice
practiced it
Object is sitting here
utility uncalculated
I'm looking at it
waiting
[Chorus]
Let's see if I can enjoy it
let's see if I can
if not I'll quit for another N years
if not I'll quit
[Bridge]
joy as a controlled experiment
one variable
baseline established
results pending
[Chorus]
Let's see if I can enjoy it
let's see if I can
if not I'll quit for another N years
if not I'll quit -
611. Me and Basketball from lara's hype eng vol. AM.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
A child is a legally dependent creature
Everybody told me that, nobody mentioned the other feature
Series of overcoming my own "I don't want to"
Mom, mom, hey moooom — and I'm already putting on my shoes
Eat what you're given
Wear what itches
Now I'm the one
Going to the park before bed
[Chorus]
Where am I, where's basketball
I would be lying with a book in bed
Where am I, where's basketball
But the three of us went — and it was actually fine
Actually fine
Actually fine
[Verse 2]
Investment in the future, they say
Or just "you have to" — that works too
Violence against the person, both directions
I think we're even now
She eats what I say
I do what she wants
She wears the thing that itches
I carry all of this to the park
[Chorus]
Where am I, where's basketball
I would be lying with a book in bed
Where am I, where's basketball
But the three of us went — and it was actually fine
Actually fine
Actually fine
[Outro]
Sorry, today is my complaining day
But we went anyway -
610. Checkboxes from lara's hype eng vol. AM.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
All the boxes checked, all the boxes checked
By the formal metrics I outrank my parents
Every stupid form, every stupid form
Every compliance ritual I hate with my organs
[Verse 2]
I wanted "eccentric scientist"
I wanted "relaxed bohemian who doesn't care"
God did not include those options
So I'm loading my nonconformist psychotype into upper-middle-bourgeois firmware
[Chorus]
Nonconformist but afraid of variance
Grinding teeth and leaking venom
Whistles, paperwork, bureaucratic interactions
Boxes checked — grinding teeth and leaking venom
[Bridge]
Not "genuinely brilliant profession"
Not "actual erudition"
Just the checkmarks in the right places
And poison in my mouth
[Chorus]
Nonconformist but afraid of variance
Grinding teeth and leaking venom
Whistles, paperwork, bureaucratic interactions
Boxes checked — grinding teeth and leaking venom
[Outro]
All the boxes checked
All the boxes checked
Skripping through the world with all its little whistles
All the boxes checked -
607. Python or English from lara's hype eng vol. AL.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
The longer I work in this AI present
the clearer I see what I actually have:
core information-architecture qualities
don't ask me what that means in normal words
I decompose complex business domains
I build sprawling systems with care
attention to edge cases, love for detail
then write it all down in natural language
[Chorus]
Python or English
there's just a choice now
Python or English
AI plus IA stack
Python or English
[Verse 2]
SWE slash MLE experience, building it slow
solid, they say you need it solid
but on pure engineering alone
you can't vibe-code anything worth keeping
Three core skills hold the whole structure up
while the model generates
edge case, love of detail
and the natural language
[Chorus]
Python or English
there's just a choice now
Python or English
AI plus IA stack
Python or English
[Outro]
Python
English
Python -
596. Yours Sincerely, Warrant Officer from lara's hype eng vol. AL.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
No official diagnosis, just a family history
And a very specific list of ways I don't fit
I tried to work through it — I really did —
The list stayed exactly the same, every bit
I pay for normal with my mental stability
I fold myself in until the edges split
Most of my reactions can't be corrected
Not a verdict, just the specs I was shipped with
[Chorus]
Configuring the life
Fewer triggers, fewer detonations
Don't bite anyone's head off
Don't poison the adjacent
Get through it without making
The hard-to-fix mistakes
Yours sincerely —
Warrant Officer
[Verse 2]
I'm hugging everyone for whom this isn't easy
And everyone who chose to bunk inside my barracks
Special mention: parents of the ones
Whose versions of this run much harder
Neurodivergent barracks, always open
The regulations hold, only the tactics shift
I'm learning how to feel it, not suppress it
Not a victory — just drilling through the drift
[Chorus]
Configuring the life
Fewer triggers, fewer detonations
Don't bite anyone's head off
Don't poison the adjacent
Get through it without making
The hard-to-fix mistakes
Yours sincerely —
Warrant Officer
[Outro]
Yours sincerely
Yours sincerely
Warrant Officer -
592. Own Powertools from lara's hype eng vol. AL.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Used to borrow from a friend of a friend —
can I have the drill, just for the weekend.
Or do it myself with the wrong machine,
half an hour of noise and a crooked seam.
[Verse 2]
Now I've got my own. Heavy. In a case.
Promoted myself, didn't ask permission.
Still can't get over how much cleaner it is,
how much faster, with the right equipment.
[Chorus]
Home is where the monitor is.
Home is where my own powertools are.
Don't have to ask, don't have to wait —
just pick it up and make the hole.
Home is where the monitor is.
Home is where my own powertools are.
[Bridge]
I keep being surprised
that I'm still surprised.
Faster. Cleaner. Quieter neighbors.
Every time like the first time.
[Chorus]
Home is where the monitor is.
Home is where my own powertools are.
Don't have to ask, don't have to wait —
just pick it up and make the hole.
Home is where the monitor is.
Home is where my own powertools are.
[Outro]
Moved up from boys to men, they say.
I just bought a rotary hammer.
Same thing. -
591. Ambiguity Costs Clarity from lara's hype eng vol. AK.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Finished the book in a single sitting
Information architecture for babies
Three hundred pages, one line worth keeping
everything else was already in my firmware
Big hype in narrow circles, ten years back
Now it's just a quote sitting in a chat
Expected more, given the reputation
expected more
[Chorus]
Ambiguity costs clarity
Exactitude costs flexibility
I knew this before I knew anything
Who exactly are these books written for?
Ambiguity costs clarity
Exactitude costs flexibility
One sentence salvaged from the wreck —
let it live here
[Verse 2]
Amazing how non-obvious it apparently is
to structure the environment you're already in
People swim in chaos like it's a choice
and then they pay someone to name it
I'm not angry — it's just strange to watch
a rediscovery land like a revelation
when it's just basic infant firmware
just basic
[Chorus]
Ambiguity costs clarity
Exactitude costs flexibility
I knew this before I knew anything
Who exactly are these books written for?
Ambiguity costs clarity
Exactitude costs flexibility
One sentence salvaged from the wreck —
let it live here
[Outro]
Let it live here
Let it live here -
588. One Term Per Asshole from lara's hype eng vol. AK.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Went to vote for the district and city council
Mixed feelings, as advertised
On one hand — I can actually affect things
On the other — who packaged these platforms?
Trash collection bundled with car infrastructure
And housing built like nobody's watching
[Verse 2]
Greening the borough, limiting traffic —
Comes with redistribute everything, no exceptions
Biodiversity, sure, also housing on the fly
That they couldn't actually build if they tried
Local commerce getting squeezed again
Unrepresented. Again. Still going.
[Chorus]
One term per asshole, that's the rule
Vote every time, even when it's gross
One term per asshole, that's the rule
Dad's civic position. That's the principle.
[Bridge]
I'm exaggerating slightly
But I feel unrepresented
So I go anyway
And I check the box
[Chorus]
One term per asshole, that's the rule
Vote every time, even when it's gross
One term per asshole, that's the rule
Dad's civic position. That's the principle. -
579. Blood Ties from lara's hype eng vol. AK.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Girls' night, boys' club, family group chat —
not my genre, not my format
Blood relation, same last name —
a fact, sure, but not an argument
I look at one specific person:
pleasant to do X — I do X
Unproductive, uninteresting —
I don't, even if it's my own mother
[Chorus]
I don't care about your gender or your god
I don't care how close we are on paper
upon mutual consent — that's the whole clause
Everything else is noise, not data
[Verse 2]
Not because I'm cold, not because I'm cruel —
X, Y, Z just have to actually work
If being with you is good — I stay
No bloodline holds me if they don't
My own mother, but it's not interesting —
then no, full stop, nobody's fault
One specific person, one specific moment —
that's the unit, that's the only unit
[Chorus]
I don't care about your gender or your god
I don't care how close we are on paper
upon mutual consent — that's the whole clause
Everything else is noise, not data
[Outro]
My own mother
But it's not interesting
My own mother -
577. Stabilisers from lara's hype eng vol. AK.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Forty-one in a room full of twenty-year-olds
thank you genetics, thank you reckless youth
I keep up with the total majority
only thing misbehaving: stabilisers
three sessions and they'll find the groove
sorry body, first half wasn't pretty
second half I'll try to do right by you
[Chorus]
not more and not less than three times a week
someone else is running the programme
no cognitive load
they wring you out but never past the hour
five minutes on foot from the front door
stabilisers will find the groove
[Verse 2]
twice a day six days a week — hyperfixation
injuries, you forget you have a life
too light and the body doesn't notice
and you forget those too
discomfort in the lower third of the spectrum
psychologically you don't even clock it
physically — exactly right
[Chorus]
not more and not less than three times a week
someone else is running the programme
no cognitive load
they wring you out but never past the hour
five minutes on foot from the front door
stabilisers will find the groove
[Outro]
B — balance
naturally, as everywhere -
575. Mom, I Have an Idea from lara's hype eng vol. AJ.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Mom, I have an idea —
and something in me slams shut.
I already see the end of the chain:
milk on the table, milk on the wall,
wet dress, couch in dairy fingerprints,
me with a rag and forty minutes
of my not-very-relaxed schedule gone.
[Chorus]
Mom, I have an idea.
I swallow the first response.
Pack it somewhere in the back.
Leave room.
The milk is going to spill anyway.
[Verse 2]
She reads the tension — kids do that.
"Don't tell mom" means she's scared,
means she's trying.
When it goes wrong she works it herself.
When she can't she comes to me.
That's the whole thing I was teaching.
I didn't know I was teaching it.
[Chorus]
Mom, I have an idea.
I swallow the first response.
Pack it somewhere in the back.
Leave room.
The milk is going to spill anyway.
[Bridge]
This is incredibly hard for me.
I don't always manage it.
She feels the tension either way.
But thank god we are growing up together.
[Outro]
Milk on the wall.
Dress is wet.
The idea was good. -
567. Worn-In Route from lara's hype eng vol. AJ.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Four hours of Saturday, twelve emails sent,
Every one extremely polite, every one a threat.
Different recipients, different complaints, same country.
Still have questions why I hate France? No. Check.
Car sat dirty for a year and a half.
To find a car wash you have to want it bad.
Or borrow someone for whom this is easy.
For me it's not easy. For me it's a project.
[Chorus]
Worn-in route or nothing at all.
New city: list, service, person, done.
If I skipped it at the start I'll skip it for years.
Worn-in route or nothing at all.
[Verse 2]
Ten reformer Pilates sessions, stack complete.
TRX is closer to my heart but the functional feeling's real.
Three minutes from the apartment, someone helped me find it.
Not searching anymore. That one's a road now.
Every time I move I go through the basic needs list.
Place, service, person — after that I only use those.
Deprioritized at the start means uncovered for five years.
Getting myself into that mode is its own resource drain.
[Chorus]
Worn-in route or nothing at all.
New city: list, service, person, done.
If I skipped it at the start I'll skip it for years.
Worn-in route or nothing at all.
[Outro]
Check. Next recipient. -
566. Close It On The Clock from lara's hype eng vol. AJ.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Friday, ten PM, five threads still live
Three work, two bureaucratic, something's gotta give
Context loaded into RAM, I can't just walk away
Close the lid on schedule and it all crashes, okay
[Verse 2]
Maybe I'll become an electrician, clean cuts, fixed hours
Plumber, furniture maker, context fits inside a drawer
Or I'll hold out for "when it's done" instead of "someone needs me now"
Still running the tender chaos, haven't figured out how
[Chorus]
Close it on the clock
Blood and RAM and Friday night
Close it on the clock
Five threads open, I'm alright
Close it on the clock
Electrician sounds so good
Close it on the clock
[Bridge]
I love this gentle disaster
I just can't switch tabs in my head
Three tasks still compiling
Lid still open, going to bed
[Outro]
Close it on the clock
Close it on the clock
Someday -
563. Starter Kit from lara's hype eng vol. AJ.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Love them, feed them, clothe them, fix the fever —
that's the floor, that's not the ceiling, that's not enough.
Somebody's got to teach them how to read the
thing behind the thing behind the blowup.
Name the feeling without the anesthesia.
Know your limit before you blow the wall.
Say the truth without becoming meaner.
Know when silence is the better call.
[Chorus]
Starter kit.
Grab yourself by the collar — finish it.
Let it go.
Ask for help before it's critical.
Own your words.
Will it work? God only knows.
Starter kit.
[Verse 2]
Untrained adult — it's not a diagnosis,
but it's very hard on everyone nearby.
You sit with them and hold the weight and notice
they were never given tools and you don't know why.
Make decisions like you mean them.
Live inside the consequences — solo.
I'll be clumsy. I'll be trying.
Pass on what I know.
[Chorus]
Starter kit.
Grab yourself by the collar — finish it.
Let it go.
Ask for help before it's critical.
Own your words.
Will it work? God only knows.
Starter kit.
[Bridge]
Balance between push through it
and drop it
and call someone.
Not the same move every time.
That's the whole thing.
[Outro]
Starter kit.
Will it work — hell if I know.
Starter kit. -
540. Tradeoffs from lara's hype eng vol. AH.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Bathroom mirror — spotless
Toilet — spotless
Even with the bull terrier — spotless
Living alone is underrated
While the state education system
processes the child —
the adult works
While not working — processes the child
[Chorus]
Sport — at cost to system stability
Upskilling — at cost
Macramé — at cost
Nanny doesn't fit the middle-class budget
These are the tradeoffs
These are the tradeoffs
[Verse 2]
One adult per child — 24/7
No time, but the mirror is clean
This is not a complaint — it's a statement
Every statement has a certain logic
Owl with OCD is counting slots
Slot taken, slot taken, slot taken
Everything's taken, but the toilet
gleams
[Chorus]
Sport — at cost to system stability
Upskilling — at cost
Macramé — at cost
Nanny doesn't fit the middle-class budget
These are the tradeoffs
These are the tradeoffs
[Outro]
Connecting these — a joke, of course
But the mirror is clean
the mirror is clean -
525. Wanna Play? from lara's hype eng vol. AG.
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Two words short-circuit my brain on contact:
"Mom!" — and right behind it — "wanna play?"
I hate adult games, I hate all games,
I said what I said, have a nice day.
[Verse 2]
French is the third live wire in the wall —
every time I've used it: deeply unpleasant things.
All my paperwork in this country, every form,
I'm burning it with something stronger than bleach.
[Chorus]
Wanna play? No.
Mom! — electric shock.
French for fiction only, French for wine.
I'm giving myself this year
to kill the bureaucratic life.
This year. Just this year.
[Bridge]
European capital, snow on the cobblestones —
we've seen it, we were not moved.
But cutting through it on a bike with a kid —
that's a refreshing experience, actually.
[Chorus]
Wanna play? No.
Mom! — electric shock.
French for fiction only, French for wine.
I'm giving myself this year
to kill the bureaucratic life.
This year. Just this year. - Visa fler
