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One of her first public appearances unmasked, South Asian ExMuslim, Haram Doodles, recounts what it was like growing up with a life of restriction and fear from her parents, her culture, and God. She reveals the details of why and how she ultimately left Islam. Speaking out now on social media as an artist and ExMuslim Atheist, her art is a collection of haram (forbidden) doodles that advocate in solidarity with other courageous ExMuslims who’ve left Islam as a protest of Islam's strict restrictions. She tells her story to spread the word about Ex-Muslim Awareness Month this December.
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00:03:26 Haram's life growing up as a child to immigrant parents and a Muslim
00:06:21 Planting seeds of doubt with the dinosaurs
00:08:38 Haram's teen years living with cognitive dissonance and finding ways to grow socially
00:10:58 What pun*shments looked like for Haram growing up
00:11:53 Haram's anxiety about doing the wrong thing and the pressure to answer to a higher power
00:14:27 How learning about other religions gave Haram some perspective on the world
00:16:24 The differences between how men and women are treated in Islam
00:20:45 What the Quran says about women and how Haram felt about it before and after college
00:23:47 How purity culture and modesty rules in Islam are viewed as protection for women
00:27:47 Haram's experience with facing marriage early, how college allowed her to put it off, and the rules she faced around going to school
00:30:23 Religious reasoning for young women and girls getting married
00:33:31 Studying the Quran in college from a professor who was also a Muslim
00:38:01 How women inflict gender roles onto themselves under the influence of Islam
00:40:37 How did Haram's mother feel about her role as a Muslim woman
00:43:22 Shaming others for not practicing Islam
00:43:46 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim
00:44:07 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim
00:46:07 The lack of support and shaming from Haram's family for not following a Muslim lifestyle
00:48:12 The difficulties of a lack of individuality for Muslim women
00:49:29 TW: Su*cidal ideation
00:51:51 How Haram met her husband and why she started Haram Doodles
00:57:39 What Haram Doodles has done for Haram and her followers
01:00:08 How Haram's drawings can help activate a person's critical thinking in a softer way
01:03:03 Finding bravery in her work as an artist
01:05:01 Haram's moment of freedom in Norway
01:11:54 Truly listening and seeing ex-Muslims for who they are and not for their choice to leave Islam and ex-Muslim awareness month
01:14:22 How Haram is doing now
01:16:22 Taking back power over your own body
01:19:38 Linda, listen
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Joining us today to follow up her initial interview is Sara Glass. Sara vulnerably shares in great detail about what it was like navigating s*x, pregnancy, chiIdbirth and postpartum as a Hasidic Ultra Orthodox woman who was also gay.
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Watch her initial full interview here
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Book: “Kissing Girls on Shabbat”
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Sara Glass knew she kept falling in love with women, but that didn’t matter. She knew her place as an Ultra Orthodox woman. She was placed into an arranged marriage to a man shortly after graduating high school and she painfully left her girlfriend behind. Sara vulnerably shares in great detail about what it was like navigating s*x, pregnancy, chiIdbirth and postpartum as a Hasidic woman who was also gay.
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Book: “Kissing Girls on Shabbat”
IG: @drsaraglass
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00:03:56 Growing up in a Hasidic neighborhood in Brooklyn and falling in love with other girls as a teen
00:05:57 Sara grapples with who she has been taught God is, Jewish law, and her actions
00:07:32 Keeping an open heart and connecting to the story with your own struggles
00:08:27 How marriage classes surprised Sara and the emphasis on the holiness of consummation
00:12:20 How a lack of s*x education led to confusion and an invasion of privacy from the Rabbi
00:18:52 What Sara's first pregnancy was like and her complicated feelings afterwards TW: m*scarriage
00:22:06 The differences between m*scarrying a girl fetus and a boy fetus
00:23:40 Sara's husband takes the rules even further
00:25:49 What it was like giving birth without her husband in a secular hospital as a Hasidic Jewish woman
00:27:22 What the rules for birth control were in Sara's community
00:30:44 Gender roles in the Hasidic community and how the community is built around them
00:34:16 Mental health in this Hasidic community and Sara's fight for higher education
00:39:21 More rules around giving birth
00:42:48 What does Sara wish the medical staff would have done differently?
00:45:36 Sara's experience in college learning about the LGBTQ+ community
00:48:49 How Sara's social work classes applied to her own life TW: Marital r*pe
00:50:56 Rules for men around s*x
00:52:52 Divorce in the Hasidic community and the conditions Sara had to agree to to be granted one
00:56:20 Sara finally feels like she's in her own body
00:59:42 Sara expands her horizons in the secular world before remarrying
01:05:28 What did the Rabbis say about the LGBTQ+ community and men vs women
01:07:36 Sara finally decides to live an authentic life
01:12:20 What it means to leave a Hasidic community and the difficulties Sara faced
01:13:07 What Sara's relationship with her family is like today
01:14:31 What Sara's chosen community looks like now
01:17:26 Future writing endeavors
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Anyone can get sucked into a cult or be manipulated by an enthusiastic leader with bad intentions. Harvard graduate Joelle Tamraz, was young, enthusiastic and a perfect target for this specific yoga guru. Seeking enlightenment, purpose and peace, she came across a man who swept her off her feet and used spiritual manipulation to eventually exploit her and her family out of thousands of dollars. In this follow up episode we will discuss how exactly he got people to believe he had special powers and the ways in which he sucked them into his financial exploitations.
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Watch her previous episode here
IG: @joelletamraz
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Book: The Secret Practice: Eighteen Years on the Dark Side of Yoga: A Memoir
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YouTube: @elevatingvoices
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Join us live as Charlotte Medlock, former devout follower and right-hand employee to the infamous Guru Jagat, breaks down the various manipulation tactics implemented by the "Guru" in her rise and abrupt death. From sleep deprivation, to spiraling out of her sense of identity, we discuss how Kundalini Yoga was turned into a modern New Age cult.
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Watch our original interview Charlotte: How Narcissistic Yoga Guru Jagat Exploited Her Followers
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The new MAX documentary “Breath of Fire” exposes a dark side of Yogi Bhajan's Kundalini yoga. Today we are joined by Dr. Jules, who was featured in the doc, for a follow up to her initial C2C interview. What does it truly mean to wake up out of the “yoga matrix” after 8 years and find some sort of normalcy in life?
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Full length interview with Jules
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Searching for community and a higher purpose in life, Dr. Jules Hartley found herself in a Kundalini Yoga class which promised a life of prosperity. All she had to do was follow the prescribed lifestyle, wear a turban, practice yoga and meditation at 4am every day, follow a specific diet and cleanses and essentially worship the late Yogi Bhajan. It would take 8 years before she realized it none of the claims were true, her life was falling apart, and she was essentially in a cult. Watch her in the new documentary “Breath of Fire” airing October 23rd on MAX.
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IG: @jtotheules
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00:03:53 What led Dr. Jules to seek yoga and meditation
00:11:21 Dr. Jules' chiIdhood and religious background
00:16:23 Dr. Jules goes to her Kundalini yoga class
00:17:46 True Kundalini yoga vs Kundalini yoga in LA
00:21:08 How this style of Kundalini yoga came to be
00:30:10 How Yogi Bhajan's teachings were manipulative and controlling
00:33:12 Yogi Bhajan's teachings get passed down to the next generation of teachers and across the globe
00:38:47 How the culture of LA and Yogi Bhajan's version of Kundalini yoga created the perfect storm
00:44:43 How the ab*se of Yogi Bhajan is enmeshed with his style of Kundalini yoga
00:50:18 The expectation of women being with other women in the teachings and White Tantric Yoga
00:55:03 Sikhism and Guru Jagat
00:55:58 Hari Jiwan and his wife begin teaching classes
01:01:02 Hari Jiwan's inner circle
01:04:09 Dr. Jules' mental wellbeing after 8 years in the cult and what made her finally leave
01:16:13 How Dr. Jules got to be where she is today
01:23:37 How her naturopathic education aided her deconstruction and understanding of what she went through
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Breaking News - Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced to Prison. Today we are joined by ex cult member, Kendra Lee Bryan, who has been following the case closely and will walk us through all of the sentencing updates.
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For more information, watch these videos:
Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced to Prison w/ Lauren Mathias
Sentencing Hearing | Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced
Judge Locks Up YouTube Mom Ruby Franke After She Begs for Forgiveness
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8 Passengers’ Ruby Franke pleads guilty to her charges with a plea agreement. Kendra Lee Bryan of [Cult]ure Shock joins us to discuss the details of the plea deal, and reveal harrowing details of what Ruby’s family endured. Kendra, a fellow cult survivor, is a valuable asset to C2C. She has come upon some hard times, and we'd like to support her by helping her find a job (unethically laid off), and throwing her some donations in the meantime.
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Kendra Lee Bryan has been following the case closely and will walk us through all of the updates since our last livestream.
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Fingers have been pointed and blame shifted from the alleged perpetrators Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt in court. Are we really surprised? However, more and more people are coming forward to attest to the awful treatment Ruby and Jodi have both inflicted on others aside from Ruby's own. Joined by Kendra Bryan, we will discuss some of the new updates in the case.
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Breaking news with Mormon mommy blogger Ruby Franke who was arrested for extreme CA. Join me, Andrew Gold and Kendra Bryan to discuss the details of the arrest.
Click here for the 1st part on YouTube on Andrew Gold's Channel before moving over here.
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Join us to further discuss the awful book "To Train Up a Child". As a follow up to our episode together, we will answer your questions!
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Watch her episode first here
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Childhood was anything but peaceful growing up as a “Rama kid” in this insular Shawano, Wisconsin Cult. Claiming to have seen God and speak for Him, the leader seemed to enjoy torturing his members (especially the youth) and keeping them under strict control. Michele was 5 when her parents left her at the cult compound where she was endlessly tortured. She wouldn’t fully end up escaping until her 30s.
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00:03:45 Rama's history and how he came to be in the United States and converted to Christianity
00:06:39 Michele's early life in the cult
00:08:39 Early memories from the cult and their lasting effects
00:12:03 What it was like living in the compound and ways in which food was used in harmful ways
00:12:49 TW: Michele was tortured as a chiIId, having to eat her own vomit
00:18:56 How Rama would pit chiIdren and families against each other
00:22:25 TW: Psychological and physical ab*se
00:28:07 What going to public school was like for Michele and how the other chiIdren and teachers treated her
00:30:48 Michele's inconsistent schooling and how it effected her later on
00:33:59 Michele's final straw to leave the church and the repercussions for defying Rama
00:39:21 How Michele's mother's relationship with her chiIdren and the church changed after Michele left
00:42:11 How Michele's mom's devotion to Rama added to the ab*se
00:44:25 TW: Physical ab*se
00:45:52 Rama's control over parents led to Michele's parentification
00:50:42 Physically leaving the cult, mentally still following Rama
00:52:18 How mental health was viewed in the cult
00:54:37 How Michele handled parenthood after her trauma
00:56:50 Michele's experience in therapy and what helped her to find healing
00:59:56 Michele's symptoms of PTSD
01:05:51 Michele uses energy healing practices to cut ties with Rama
01:11:33 What Michele believes now
01:12:04 How Michele is doing now
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Shifrah grew up in the horrific Shawano, Wisconsin cult often called SIST. She frequently witnessed people being beat*n or shocked with cattle prods. Some people joined to fulfill their own sadistic fantasies, while others were too indoctrinated or programmed to realize the CA was wrong and unacceptable. Determined to beat up adults who were harming chiIdren, shifrah became a ring leader of sorts and a huge target to the cult leader. Afraid of what influence she may have, Shifrah was kicked out and disowned from her 13 person family, expected to live on the streets at 12 years old.
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00:04:07 What is the Rama cult, and why do people follow him?
00:07:23 Shifrah's family lived there and was heavily involved
00:08:40 ChiId labor on the compound
00:15:32 CW: Physical Ab*se- What the Shawano kids saw
00:20:43 There was a clear familial hierarchy which controlled how people were treated
00:21:36 CW: CSA- The various kinds of ab*se happening
00:24:52 CW:CSA- Rama pushing the men to little girls...
00:26:21 CW: CSA- rampant ab*se that led to chiIdren playing "doctor" with each other
00:32:10 Re-learning to trust her body after CSA
00:33:35 How Rama got parents to hurt their own chiIdren
00:36:58 CW: DV & CA
00:39:58 Shifrah "rebels" by starting a posse to protect chiIdren from adults
00:45:36 What led to Shifrah getting kicked out of her house
01:00:45 How Shifrah was able to go to high school
01:01:41 Shifrah's life falls apart after her first husband passes away
01:05:08 Shifrah's biological parents want a relationship with her
01:06:54 Shifrah processes everything that happened to her, and advocates against the cult now
01:16:05 What brings Shifrah joy now
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CW: CSA, SA, Abuse. Cult dynamics can be found in large, high control groups, as well as in single families. From no locked doors or privacy within the house, to accompanying her on dates, ab*sing her with barb wire, and hold her family hostage, Kahlia’s father essentially acted like a cult leader in her household and kept her imprisoned with manipulation tactics and various forms of ab*se. Learn what it took for her to leave her dying grandmother (per her wishes) so she could escape and find true freedom and happiness.
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00:04:05 Kahlia's family dynamic growing up
00:05:29 Kahlia's father's rules with purity culture
00:08:55 Kahlia's father didn't allow her to have any friends
00:10:28 Kahlia's home school experience
00:12:56 The different religious beliefs Kahlia's father thought was the true way
00:14:42 Kahlia's hairstyle was controlled by her father
00:16:37 TW: Kahlia's father threat*ned their lives by kn*fepoint whenever her mom tried to take them and leave
00:19:21 Kahlia's father told her she'd be responsible for breaking up the family if she spoke out
00:23:35 Kahlia's father would bully her
00:25:08 TW: walking in while undressing, groping, SA
00:26:30 TW: CSA (father forces a tampon when Kahlia is 11)
00:29:33 TW: CSA (17 years old)
00:32:06 TW: SA (the last incident that made Kahlia leave for good)
00:37:36 What motivated Kahlia to get out of the abus*ve situation
00:39:48 Kahlia's family's negative reaction to her dating her now husband
00:43:38 Na na's parting words to Kahlia
00:45:00 What it was like acclimating to a new life outside of control
00:54:56 What brings Kahlia joy now
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The Samanta Roy Institute of Science and Technology, known also simply as SIST, is a secretive fundamentalist Christian-like group based in Shawano, Wisconsin. The group was founded by Rama Behera, a Hindu who converted to Christianity, who later changed his name to Dr. Rama Chandra Samanta Roy. Born and raised in the insidious cult, Elisabeth Gronval and her 8 other siblings went through hell at the hands of the leader. He would isolate and torture chiIdren with hard manual labor, disturbing physical punishments and verbal ab*se. Elisabeth was publicly humiliated when her home was ransacked at the leader’s command and extremely private belongings were passed around to hundreds of members. Excommunicated from her church and her family, she was left alone to navigate an unknown world.
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00:00:00 Intro
00:05:07 Who is Rama Behera and why do people follow him?
00:08:16 Elisabeth and her family traveled to the compound every weekend for his sermons
00:09:48 The torture that Elisabeth witnessed
00:13:16 In Rama's mind, what was meriting this type of torture to chiIdren?
00:17:04 Some of Elisabeth's chiIdhood memories in the cult
00:20:37 Were parents isolated and kept away from seeing the chiIdren tortured?
00:21:47 What was Rama saying to convince people he had authority?
00:27:25 Sticking out like a sore thumb in public school
00:29:19 Why Elisabeth started to "rebel" in her teen years
00:38:15 What made Elisabeth want to escape?
00:43:03 The beginning of when it seemed it was time for Elisabeth to leave
00:48:11 Elisabeth going back and meeting Rama's wrath (he shared n*de photos of her to everyone)
00:56:35 Elisabeth's final escape
01:01:44 When Elisabeth's family decided to leave the cult
01:04:45 Elisabeth opens up about her father and his vulnerabilities
01:10:19 Elisabeth feels Rama has mental illness
01:14:31 Has Rama seen consequences?
01:19:35 What brings Elisabeth joy now?
01:27:25 Linda, listen
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Hannah Neeleman, LDS trad wife and mom-fluencer for over 9 million collective followers is under high scrutiny from the world after an article in The Times, pulled back the veil from her seemingly perfect life. Journalist Megan Agnew wrote about her sneaking suspicion of secret oppression going on behind the scenes due to her impression of Hannah’s heavily lurking husband. Is Hannah, the pageant-winning, butter-churning, picture perfect mother of eight actually happy to have blown up her ballerina career at Juilliard for this exhausting lifestyle? Joined live today, former LDS trad wife and content creator. Jennie Gage, weighs in on her opinion of the matter.
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An old official LDS church document has just surfaced on Reddit about the “dangers” of masturb*tion and we are here to cover it with @alyssaadgrenfell. Also on the docket are other harmful talks about the normative practice. Make sure you go to Alyssa’s channel to watch part 1 before we redirect to our channel to continue the conversation!
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Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith.
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Catch Shelise on Alyssa’s channel where they discuss soaking and other loopholes
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00:00:00 Intro
00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU
00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah
00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students
00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries
00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims
00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU
00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve
00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church
00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission
00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission
00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission
01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries
01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home
01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions
01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing
01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments
01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert
01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need
01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission
01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary
01:43:49 Linda, listen
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